Law Of Attraction - Story Of My Life!!!

New Year

Heyy senoritas,

A very happy new year to you guys. I hope this year turns out to be the best one for each of you out there and you find what you have been looking for so long. I hope you find all the love, care and respect, you truly deserve.

What did you guys do on new year's eve ?

If you ask about me, I am currently sitting in my comfy bed in my pajamas and listening to "Let it go- Frozen". I thought of going out but then didn't feel like. I am absolutely comfortable in what i am doing, infact i love NOT getting ready and going out :P
I have always celebrated new year's eve at my home with my family where we all use to watch TV till 12, then wait for the countdown, then wish each other, have a cup of chai and chocolates and go up on the terrace to see the fireworks. I have never been to party on this day and still don't want to. Somethings are better left untouched, there are some things in your life whose importance or whose memory you never want to taint and this is one of those things for me. Welcoming new year in an age old tradition.

I love the peace of my room, i love being alone. I love my company :D :P

I was just thinking how some people were surprised that i didn't go out to party and they were like "why babe ?", "awww..you should have come with us ". I don't understand why? I mean how difficult could it be to digest that a person doesn't want to or like to "shake a leg" on an over-hyped cliched day ?? :P

Why everything should be in a certain way for us to digest it ? why can't we just appreciate something different or unique about a person ? Why is everyone thinking that i am not having a good time? It's weird.
I mean i am comfortable, warm and cozy. I have my laptop and thus access to the whole freaking world. My fairy lights are on, windows are open and since i am on fourth floor..it's absolutely peaceful and cozy. Trust me, It's fine if you're not partying out there, it's fine if you don't have that special someone to kiss at midnight and it's absolutely fine being in your space and fucking enjoying it. Anyway, you're not alone. *self fist bump* #WeRock :D

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Do you guys have new year resolutions ? have you successfully kept last year's ?
Like Every year i decided that i will not make any resolutions for o usually end up breaking all of them. EVERY. DAMN. YEAR

But like every year, here i am with a new resolution. We humans live on HOPE. Every day we hope that we'll have another day to live, every month we hope that things will change and we'll be better off and every year we hope that we'll change ourselves. HOPE is something that keeps us going. It's a fuel behind all the discoveries and inventions. It is all we have.

So my hope is to complete that one incomplete story i have had in my head since forever. You know, the most difficult thing in this world is to put your brain and your heart in alignment. Sometimes your heart knows that whatever you are doing is wrong but you do it anyway like sneaking an episode of Game of Thrones when you know you should be studying for your finals.

I have a story to tell and no it's not a typical girl fell in love with a boy story. Thus, I am scared for my book, for my story, for my Arnika. What if nobody likes Arnika's story ? What if nobody wants to hear, what she has to say ? And these questions keeps me from writing.

I have been trying to write for a year now and I have learned from my journey that it's not an easy task. It's one thing to have a story you want to share but it's whole new journey to be able to put it down on paper. It's discouraging when your words aren't able to paint the picture you have in your mind and it's a curse to not be satisfied with your work. It haunts me. I want to take over it but I end up running away from it. In my imagination, It looks so perfect to me, sitting far behind somewhere at the back of my mind.
All this while, i have been scared for my story. I kept thinking Am i ready? Am i ready to face the challenges that comes along with the feeling of accomplishment ? will people like what i write ? Is that story really worth reading ? will someone ever waste their time reading what i have to say ? It all looks so perfect in my head and i was scared that i might be wrong, that something will break that illusion of  mine, that someone will take away my dream. That dream is all i have and it is all that keeps me going.

All this while, i kept thinking about the journey but now i am thinking about the end. i am thinking how would it feel to hold a hardbound book of mine in my hands, How will it look, what colors it will have and how it would look sitting on my shelf with my name on it.

I have been thinking about starting it again, i think that it's time to take that leap of faith. I don't know if anyone will ever like what i write but if i do not try i will never know. Today there is alteast 50% probability that someone out there will resonate on my vibrations but if i never give words to my thoughts, it will never come alive. It will die as a beautiful painting that never got to see the colors on the sheet of paper, a photograph that never got taken, a perfect moment that never happened. And my dream deserves a better fate than that. I might loose a race but i never shy away from running one.  I might be under-prepared today but i'll learn on the way. Now, i just can't wait for that perfect moment anymore, It's been three years already. I have realized that i'll never have that epiphany where everything will feel perfect and it'll all magically fall in place. it's not a fairytale, there are no perfect moments. It's real life, you take a moment and make it perfect.
I have a dream and i have decided to live it. 
This year, let's promise ourselves a dream that is caged in our hearts since forever, let's promise to give it a chance to live, let's promise to not care and to not be scared, Let's promise that we'll be brave for our dream. One more push. Let's promise ourselves that leap of faith for we all deserve to see our dreams coming alive word by word, page by page. :)

Love you all guys.
XoXo Live a long generous and a prosperous life.