Closer ~ MCFLY fan fiction

This is goodbye.

"I'm so sick of lonely, this is killing me so slowly" I sang as I got dressed for my meeting "don't pretend you don't know me, that's the worst thing you can do." I sang as Doug Jr laid on the bed looking around "are going to come to the meeting with mummy today?" I asked him like I was expecting a answer as I put my hair up in a pony tail and Tom walked in "can you drive me into town?" I asked as he picked up Doug "yes" he smiled and Buzz and Lola ran in chasing after each other "calm down you two" I said and then Tom took a mirror selfie of us five and post it on Instagram 'Five Fletchers' And then Dougie started to cry and Tom calmed him down and Harry walked through the front door "hello?" He said "Lola, Harry is here" I said as she ran down "Buzz you need to get dressed" Tom said as Buzz ran in and I took Doug from him "are you alright?" Tom asked as he sat on the bed "I'm fine. Just one of those days" I said as got Doug changed "want me and Buzz to meet you after the meeting?" He asked as Harry shouted up "we are leaving" and Tom shouted down "okay". "Yes please, I don't really want to go to the meeting" I sighed "why?" He asked "every time I go in there they always ask me about my childhood" I said "just say you don't want to talk about it" Tom said as I put Doug in his car seat "I do but" I said as he stood up and hugged me "if they go on just walk out" he smiled "but it's my job, I have to stay in there" I said as i picked up my IPad and put it in my bag and Buzz ran in and I picked him up "I'm ready mummy" he smiled "we should get going otherwise I'm going to be late" I said as I picked my bag and walked down and Tom picked the car seat up and we walked to the car.

"Thank you, I'll text you when I'm out" I said as I got Doug in his push chair "you sure your alright?" Tom said out of the window "I'm fine" I smiled and then walked off and into the building and went up to the meeting room.

"Your late Hilfiger" my boss said as I walked in pushing Doug in "you had a baby?" He asked "why do you think I was off for 9 months" I smiled "how old is he?" He asked "a week yesterday" I said "you should be at home" my other boss said "it's fine" I said as I sat at the back of the table with Doug and the meeting continued "Hilfiger, I know you don't like us asking but could you tell us about your childhood and parents?" Mary asked "okay" I sighed as I got up and saw that Doug was asleep and I got my IPad and walked to the front of the room "when I was young I would say about five, my parents beat me and put the cigarettes out on me but at the age of seven I met my best friend and now husband who saved me from them, his family took me in and cared for me every chance they had and I felt like another person like I actually had a family" I said "I had other brothers and sisters but as they were like my parents and I was different they treated me differently" I said "I was sent to hospital a few times but I was never taken away and I wish I was. The abuse effects you mentally and sometimes physically. My parents never sent me to school until I was seven and Tom's parents sent me to the same school as him and I was scared of meeting new people" I said "a few months I came face to face with my parents after my nana's funeral at her house and I was lucky that I had my husband and his band mates with me, but they said some nasty stuff like they wish I was never born but it didn't faze me in anyway" I said "back to what I said about the cigarettes burns, I have scars all over me and I was sent to hospital and I have pictures" I said as I opened my iPad and showed them "will you tell your children about them?" Someone asked "no, I don't want them knowing about my past but if they ever asked about their grandparents I would tell them the truth" I said "did it make you scared of having children?" Someone else asked "yes because I thought for some reason I was like my parents but thank god I'm not because I worship that ground my kids walk on. If I ever laid a finger of them I lock myself up" I said " a week after I had my first child, Lola, I was so scared and stressed that I took Lola and moved to Portsmouth for two years without telling anyone and I didn't know what to do. And what scared me even more was when I found out that Lola had autism, I had no clue what to do so I came back" I said "thank you Lily" my boss said as I went back to my seat and saw that Doug was awake and he needed a feed and lucky enough I put some milk in a bottle for him and so I picked him up as my boss spoke and fed him.