Christmas Miracle {Rolleigns}

Chapter VII

I waited until he closed the door and let out a long sigh.

"What just happened?" I mumbled and looked down at Kevin.

Kevin opened his eyes and looked at me, tilting his head slightly.

"Sorry Kev, you probably want to sleep." I said and scratched him behind his ears.

He barked and put his head down again, closing his eyes.

I wished that I could fall asleep  so easily like Kevin. I had major problems with falling asleep and sleeping in general since him.
Everytime I tried to fall asleep I started thinking about him, my daughter and me.
That's not healthy at all for me but I couldn't help it.
All I ever wanted in life was a daughter, a dog and a husband.
I had a daughter but I was not sure if I would be able to see her ever again.
He didn't want to have pets so I've never gotten a dog and he didn't want to marry, to be tied down...
That should have been my warning sign but I ignored it.
I thought that he would change his mind at some point and propose to me but instead of that he started cheating on me and 'punishing' me for his mistakes.

I sniffled and rubbed my eyes, hearing a muffled whimper.
I looked down and saw Kevin looking at me with his sad puppy dog eyes.

"Oh no baby... I'm sorry." I sniffled and picked him up to put him closer to my face.

Kevin whimpered again and snuggled up against my neck, licking over my cheek.
I smiled slightly and sniffled again.

"I didn't want to wake you up but I'm just thinking about so much stuff... I've always wanted to have a dog but my ex hates pets so I couldn't adopt one..." I said and Kevin barked, snuggling closer to me.

I brushed my hand over his back and smiled.

"Yeah, you're right baby boy. Now I have you. I'm just gonna talk a bit, okay?" I closed my eyes and Kevin did so too, barking once.

"So I have a daughter, she's three years old and a really good little girl. She never really cried or something. She got fussy if she wouldn't get her food on time or couldn't go to sleep and that's about it. I'm really happy to have her but the problem is that my mom took her away from me. She didn't trust my ex and told me that he's too dangerous and would hurt her... The thing is that he didn't hurt her, he hurt me. He loved to drink, smoke and I believe that he did drugs and if something upset him, got him mad or he just had a bad day I was the cause of it. Normally someone would pack their things and run away if their ex would beat them up but I didn't. I believed that he would change and he always told me that so I wiped away my tears, bandaged up my wounds and said to myself that it would never happen again... I was so wrong Kevin, it just got worse. He would hurt me everyday and then run off to cheat on me with some random chicks and I still wouldn't leave him.
I lost my daughter, the interest in love and myself.
At one point I just couldn't take it anymore... He was drunk again in some random bar and I was alone at home. I had a breakdown and thought that it would be better if I would be dead..."

I didn't realize that I was crying, almost sobbing and that Kevin was whimpering and rubbing his snout against my cheek to calm me down. I didn't realize that my heart monitor was beeping and that someone was rushing through the door until that someone hugged me carefully.

"Shh Roman, calm down. Everything will be okay, you just need to calm down." was whispered in my ear and I felt a hand brushing through my hair.

I didn't know why or how but I calmed down.

"S-seth..." I rasped and hid my face in his neck.

"Shh, no need to talk Roman. Just take a deep breath and calm down, okay?" he whispered and kept brushing a hand through my hair.

I took a deep breath and calmed down.
His voice was so soothing and his hand in my hair even more.
I closed my eyes and felt suddenly so exhausted.

"Good Roman. Go to sleep it's okay." he whispered and layed me down carefully.

He put the cover over me and I felt Kevin getting comfortable beside my head.

"Sleep Roman." Seth whispered.

I nodded and dozed off slowly.

"I'll be here when you wake up baby boy." was the last thing I've heard before I fell asleep...

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