Ashton, The Invisible Husband ✔️

Chapter 44: Saving You

Ashton POV

Shame wash over me. It's been more than 6 hours since I left our room. I could bare think of what have I done if Alex didn't save me. What was I thinking of?

I rape my wife!

I remembered how she fought me, so hard she struggled and yet I still enforced her my desire to break her and for what?! Because I was stupid and jealous! Ilang beses bang natumba si Alex? Ilang beses ko ba syang itinulak? Ilang beses ba syang nag makaawa? Marami at ni isa wala akong pinakinggan.

"His not my boyfriend, let alone be my lover?" Wasn't it so clear when she said those words? Hindi ba ilang beses na ring sinabi ni Alex na wala syang naging iba maliban sa akin? And what about last month? Diba nagsumbong rin sya sa akin that Tim tried to force himself into getting inside our condo? Kung talagang may relasyon sila, why would Alex tell me those things?! Simple lang naman, dahil wala nga silang relasyon!

"Stupid! Stupid! Stupid Santino!" I wanted to hurt myself so much for being the greatest fool! Guilt is eating every fiber me. Kanina tahimik at walang kibo akong lumabas ng aming kwarto. Alexandra fell asleep in my arms after we made love, the third time around.

Hindi ko alam kung paano nakayanan ni Alex ang pangatlong pagniig namin dahil alam kong pagod na pagod na sya. Nang masiguro kong tulog na sya, bumangon na ako and I held my breathe when I saw all her marks and bruises at doon mismo ay gusto kong magwala.

Fuck! I'm so stupid! Kaya galit na galit ako sa sarili ko. How could have I done that to Alexandra?! If it hadn't for her, kung hindi pa dahil kay Alex mismo, I would have rape her damn it! Dahil sa nangyari hindi ko alam kung papaano ko sya haharapin.

"Fuck! What the hell were you thinking Ash?!" Galit na tanong ko sa aking sarili pag katapos kung uminum ng tubig. Papaano ko haharapin si Alex ngayon. Nakakahiya ang ginawa ko. Totoo man o hindi, na wala syang naging iba, hindi pa rin tama ang ginawa ko. Raping someone, even if she happens to be your wife is punishable by law.

"Ash?" Tawag nya sa akin mula sa bukas na pintuan ng mga bata. I heard her pero hindi pa rin ako kumikibo. I just continue to pretend that I am sleeping on the couch.

"Ash?" She tried to call my attention again pero katulad ng kanina, deadma pa rin ako hanggang sa lumabas na sya ng kwarto papunta sa akin. I can't see her but I can hear her footsteps coming towards me, my heart beats erratically and my chest started to tighten. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko.

"Ashton!" Sigaw nya pa rin but this time she was trying to wake me up. This sucks. Really Ash? Pretending to be asleep? At ano na nga ang sinasabi nila sa taong nag tutulog tulogan? Ay ang pinaka mahirap gisingin.

"Ano?!" I answered, konwari ka gigising lang. Hay, lousy escape goat!

"Tapos na ako sa lahat, pati na rin sa mga gamit ng mga bata." She said and she sat beside me. Why is she here? Is she not going to be mad and be upset at me? I mean I raped her!

"Ok. I have their passports pero nasa bahay yon sa kabila." Tumayo na si Alex kasabay ng dapat pagtayo ko na rin nang itinulak nya ako pabalik nang upo sa couch kasabay ang pag upo nya sa kandungan ko.  "What are you doing?" Nagugulohang tanong ko sa kanya.

"Loving my husband." She said habang hinuhubad nya ng kanyang t-shirt. She completely naked to my surprised and then she started to unbutton my polo.