Just Different (Camren) (G!P)

Chapter 12.

Lauren's POV

As Alpha, I've always been raised to be ruthless and cruel to those who have brought forth hurt to my own people. I've been raised to show dominance over those who are weaker than I am, and it's almost an instinct at times even when I don't mean it. My position in the family is to show our enemies that peace is the best alternative, but that doesn't necessarily mean I won't kill you if you attempt anything to hurt those who I love. It's my responsibility.

Then I look into those beautiful, chocolate-brown eyes and I turn into a soft mess when it comes to my duties. I know that it is perhaps because she is so disarmingly unaware of her beauty, perhaps it is her innocence and radiant smile that can light me up no matter where I am or what I'm feeling. Camila does that to me, something I've never felt before. I know that when I take small glance her way, every angry thought, every tormented feeling inside of me is gone.

I don't tell her often how beautiful she is, and maybe it's why she's constantly viewing me as nothing else but a sex magnet. I can't help the thoughts that roam my head of her beauty, the things I'd do to her. One touch from her and the intoxication is instant, just her scent sends me into a heady trance. I wanted badly to push those thoughts away and show the kind, passionate side of me without appearing of a sex animal. But until we officially make love, there is no possible way I can feed the beast inside of me.

I read her thoughts and then I no longer think she's innocent, but then she's innocent again when her curiosity peaks and she wonders again. I can hear her thinking of my most intimate parts and what it must look and feel like, it takes everything in me not to push her up against one of these trees and show her.

I rid myself of the predatory thoughts swirling through my head and look ahead, my eyes meeting a pair of frightened blue ones as he's carried and dragged to my home. Oh, how I ached to kill him. Poor child, stupid and blinded by the thought of his disgraceful life coming to an end. I clench my jaw and force myself to look away.

"I hope you're still not mad," Camila admits from beside me, staring into my eyes with regret and her face resembles one of a child caught in the act of mischief. My features soften involuntarily when those beautiful, hickory eyes meet mine, as rich as the earth's soil. "I wasn't taking his side, I just couldn't help but feel bad for him. He's just a kid."

"I'm not angry," I give her a short response, offering a smile though it feels foreign to my lips when I don't look at her. I was partially telling the truth, I wasn't mad at her, I was just mad at the thought of his hands wanting to touch her. I feel selfish for not thinking too much of Ally, and I cared about her too, which was why it made things more heated for me. Ally was family now.

But just the thought of another man's hand on my girl was enough to drive me insane. That corrupted head of his thought nothing more than how beautiful she was and how much he wanted her, I could sense it. "Then why don't you want to talk to me?"

"I am," My voice is softer. "I just feel like I've caused you so much danger in the span of a week and a half, I don't think I've felt this about something my entire life. It doesn't feel right that everyone wants to harm you just to get to me."

"What are you trying to say?" Camila sighs, "I can defend myself, you don't have to worry so much."

"Maybe I don't." I nod, trying not to irritate her in any way. I just wanted to keep her safe. "I just think that maybe I should have waited a little longer before introducing myself, not by almost killing Clementine in front of you. I should have given you time instead of bringing you into my life like this..."

I run the tip of my tongue over my teeth and stay silent, feeling her heartbeat quicken and her thoughts raising. I try my best to keep quiet after that and her silence is enough to let me know I shouldn't have said anything. I swallow thickly and glance at Lexa over my shoulder who looks pretty confident with Clarke now, arm wrapped around the blonde's shoulder protectively.