First Daughter || (n.j.)

Chapter 10

Nicks POV

As soon as Harper left with Lt. Daniels, I felt a mixture of relief and regret. I knew she was leaving thinking that I regretted what happened last night and that was definitely not the case.

Last night had been incredible. I loved every second of it. I loved the way her body felt against mine. The way her breathing hastened as she dug her nails into my back. The way she arched her back and weighed against my body when she climaxed.

What I didn't love was the position I was in now. I had feelings for her but I still had a job to do. She thought I was scared of feeling anything. Little did she know how much I had felt in my lifetime. It's what had brought me here actually.

I didn't want to have to get into all of that with her but I also didn't want to lose her. What if this was the only chance I had left? Everything that had happened in the last 24 hours had been a whirlwind. I needed to clear my head.

I knew the next few days would not be easy. I knew it was cowardly but I didn't feel like I could face Harper right now. I had already let her in more than I had with anyone in the past several years and anymore could jeopardize her safety which was the last thing I wanted.

My phone started ringing and I saw my sister's name flash across the screen.

"Hey Em!" I said trying to sound upbeat.

"Hey! Are you okay? I heard there was come explosion or shooting or something just down the street from you place!"

I rubbed my temples. Em was always worrying about me, and even more so since our parents had died. I hated when she did though because she had enough going on in her own life with my three nephews and her husband.

"Yes, I am fine. Safe and sound in my apartment right now."

"Oh thank goodness. I was so worried. How are you? How is the new mission? You sound stressed."

I smiled a little. She was so intuitive.

"It's going good. A little more complicated than some of my other jobs so I guess I am a little more stressed than usual."

"You should come stay with us for a few days. It would be so nice for you to get out of the city and get some fresh air for a change. You can bring your girlfriend if you want." She added the last part in quickly. She was always hoping I was going to find a girlfriend so she could stop worrying about me being lonely out here. With this job, I just didn't seem to have the time though. Not to mention, as much as I hated t admit, I really did have a hard time letting people in like Harper had said.

"Thanks for the offer Em. Once this is over, I might take you up on it. I'd love to see you guys."

"And we would love to see you! Your nephews miss you."

"I miss them too." I said. Sometimes I envied the life Jill had. A perfect marriage and three beautiful little boys. They ate dinner together every night and went to football and soccer games on the weekends. It was everything I had wanted at one point too. Now I wasn't I wasn't sure if I would ever have it. Or even if I wanted it.

"Well stay safe Nick. Please call to check in a little bit more. I worry about you out there by yourself."

"I know. I will Em, I promise. Give the boys a hug for me. Love you."

"Love you too!"

We hung up and I sat back on the couch. I needed to talk to Harper. I hated that we had left things like that after everything last night. I planned to go over to the White House a little earlier than Lt. Daniels wanted me back on duty to try and talk with her. I knew it wouldn't be easy, especially if her aunt and uncle were in town. And I had a feeling she could be pretty stubborn so who knew if she would even let me try to explain.