Is Phan Real?

Chapter 4

I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing and I immediately decline as I hate talking to people this early in the morning and by early I mean twelve in the afternoon. I reach for my phone and unlocked it when I see there's ten text messages and five missed calls all from Phil. I don't even get a chance to read the text messages when I start getting a facetime call. I decline the call and set my phone into do not disturb. I look to the right of me and for the first time it felt so good not to wake up alone. Her hair was out of place reminding me of how she used to look when she would stay up all night studying. I would be on my laptop secretly watching youtube for hours wishing I could be a cool youtuber. I still can't help, but think about what would have happened if she would have reached out to me sooner. With that thought I suddenly feel her turning around so I get out of bed slowly in hopes that I wouldn't wake her up. I quietly walk out of the room and grab a napkin along with a pen off the kitchen table and scribble out a note, "Hey, I had to get home because Phil needs me. Call me when you wake up".

I walked out closing the door quietly and start heading back home.

"Phil" I call out his name, but he doesn't respond. I don't see him in his room so I head to mine thinking he probably went to the store or something.

"What are you doing in here Phil" I shouted. He was sitting on the edge of my bed like he had been waiting for me.

"Where were you?" he asked staring me down as if I did something wrong.

"That's none of your business!"

"Where were you? I don't understand why you're mad at me. This is the first time you didn't come home and you're surprised I was worried?"

"That doesn't mean I have to tell you every single thing I do and I was with a friend okay?" He was right, this was the first time I've been out on a night like this. I can see why he was upset, but still I'm not some little kid even if I am younger than him.

"What friend?" he asks.

"Someone I used to talk to when I was in university" I respond annoyed with his questioning.

"That was over six years ago. Why would they want to reach out to you now? They're probably trying to use you for their own benefit and you know it." he immediately replies.

"Whatever you say Phil. Now get the hell out of my room!" It looked like he might have tears in his eyes, but I didn't care at this point.

(Phil's POV)

I scurry out and head straight to my room slamming the door shut behind me. I can't believe Dan would yell at me like that. I really hope he understands where I'm coming from I think to myself as my eyes start to fill with tears. I can't help but wonder who he would even be talking to from that long ago. I thought he didn't have any friends when he was in college. It just really makes me feel like he might have been lying to me this whole time. My heart starts to ache as I think that the person I love might love someone else. The tears start to fall down the curves of my cheeks as I sit on the edge of my bed.

Time went by and I eventually cried myself to sleep and when I woke up I grab my phone to check the time and it was only three. It felt like I've been asleep for so long but that might just be because I hadn't sleep very much last night because of Dan. That was one of the worst nights of my life. Usually I would film a sleepless night with Phil during these times, but I just couldn't play around and film when Dan wouldn't get off my mind. I finally get up and exit my room to look for him, but he's nowhere to be found. Right then I pull my phone out of my pocket to check if he texted me where he went, but my phone has literally no notifications. Suddenly I hear a beep coming from the kitchen and I see his phone sitting on the counter. I couldn't believe he would leave his phone on purpose so I wouldn't bother him. I see a bunch of missed calls and voicemails from a number I don't recognize and I couldn't help but be curious as to who he's been talking to. I think about checking the messages, but I remember that I don't know his password. However I kinda have an idea as to what his password might be; actually I know exactly what it is. I slowly start typing in the password debating wether I should look or not. To be honest I've never invaded Dan's privacy and he's never invaded mine although I know there's something he is keeping from me. I finally press enter, but unfortunately the password was wrong which made my heart sink. Which leaves me to believe that he's definitely hiding something big from me and I doubt it's anything good.

(Dan's POV)

"Thanks for the lunch" she say as she reaches over the table for a napkin.

"Dan, what is this note from?" she asks and I immediately go into panic mode. I can't believe I forgot to get rid of that damn note now she's going to know I left this afternoon, I'm such an idiot but I can't lie to her now.

"Oh uhm...Phil had been calling me about some video he wanted help filming and he said he needed it to be done today, so I went to help him and came back here." I lied. I sounded calmer than I felt and that is really odd for me. I'm usually a bad liar, but hopefully she believed it.

"You're such a good friend to Phil"

Right then I felt my heart sink. I had just yelled at Phil for being worried about me and I really shouldn't have said those things to him. He's been my best friend for so long and this had been the first time I ever lashed out at him. I need to go back and talk to Phil, but I don't know how to tell Alexis I have to leave again.

"Hey, I need to run back home. I just realized I left my phone at the house." I say as I excuse myself from the table. "I'll clean this up when I get back and I'll start dinner if you want."

"Don't worry about it. I'll clean up and you don't have to come back. Not that I don't want you here, but I have a lot of studying to do. Finals are coming up and I can't afford to not get an A."

"Oh okay. Well text me when you're free, and maybe we can do this again."

"I will." she says as she steps away from the table.

"I'll see you soon then." I say as I walk over to her and give her a hug and a brief kiss on the cheek.

I head out and start walking back to the apartment. It was a bit weird that she didn't give me a kiss on the lips this time and her hug didn't feel as comforting as it was last night when we were cuddling. It worried me that she might not actually like me and that she was just using me to get back at me for what she calls "leaving her". She probably was though especially with the way she looks now there's no way she would ever be interested in me. However I push those thoughts aside and walk into the apartment. All that matters right now is apologizing to Phil. He's been there for me through everything and I couldn't let him continue to be upset.

"Phil" I call out his name hoping he was still home.

I head over to his room and gently knock on the door.

"Go away" he responded clearly still upset with me.

"I just wanted to apologize"

"I don't want to talk to you right now. "

I open the door and walk in surprised he didn't tell me to get out. He was laying on his bed with his face in his pillow as if he had been crying. I knew he wouldn't yell at me, he'd never yell at anyone no matter how upset he was.

"I'm really sorry for yelling at you. It's just that you kinda freaked me out being in my room like that. I didn't think it was going to be a big deal to go out with an old friend. I also didn't think I was going to be out that long. We had been drinking and playing video games and I had lost track of time and passed out." That last part was such a bad lie, but it came out of me like I had rehearsed it. I've been getting better at this and that kinda scares me that Phil would eventually find out.

Phil finally sits up holding his pillow on his lap, "It's fine, I knew this day would eventually come. I can't be your best friend forever"

"Just because I hang out with other people sometimes doesn't mean we can't be friends." I take a seat next to Phil and for the first time I could sense Phil being jealous and it felt kinda comforting that he needs me.

(Phil's POV)

This was the perfect time to do it without him freaking out on me. This also might be my only chance to feel his warmth. I quickly wrap my arms around him waiting for him to pull away, but this time he doesn't. This time he wraps his arms around me too, but he doesn't say a word. I could feel the beat of his heart pounding like he was nervous. This was the first time in years that I truly felt like he'd might actually like me and I could never forget this moment.