I TRIED

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by CyraDenise

by CyraDenise

You!!

Yes, YOU!!

The man who i am into.
The man who i liked.
--no, i'd love unconciously
The man i am getting more into.
The man who i like more.
--no, i am loving more

Did i say i am loving more?
Wait, seriously?
Have i accepted to myself that i already love you?
Please, stop running into my mind and bugging my sleeping heart.

Murmurs.
Thoughts.
Happenings.
Imaginations.
~deep sigh

Murmurs about us that we're good together and we have chemistry.
--I just laugh at those, meaning, obviously that's not a fact that i am about to believe.

Thoughts that keep going and running inside my head why they're into those murmurs instead of looking us as good friends.
--honestly, i am really ignoring those thoughts and we're friends

Happenings that make those murmurs and thoughts stronger.
--i just shag 'em off

And Imaginations about the murmurs, thoughts, and happenings. Imaginations of what ifs.
   *what if i'd started to believe at those murmurs?
   *what if i also see us good together?
   *what if i believe that so called chemistry?
   *what if i made those thoughts possible?
--anyways, i am not believing that it would be possible
   *what if i gave meaning to those happenings?
--but i didn't

"I can't fight this feeling any longer,
And yet i'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish i had the strenght to let it show
I tell myself that i can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause i feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear"
~Can't Fight This Feeling
by: Reo Speedwag

I tried to fight.
I tried to reject.
I tried to shag off what it is.

Trust me, please!

I TRIED TO!