"The power of accurate observation is commonly called as cynicism by those who have not got it." - George Bernard Shaw
People say I am too much of a negative vibe when I'm present. It's like I have this aura of depression hovering over me and everything that comes out of my mouth are nothing but harsh words that only I could bear to utter, and people will slowly slouch away from me.
I got excluded, branded even, for being too much of a bitch. But I swear, even if I open my mouth, you'll be looking back at your own reflection.
I wasn't always like this.
I was a happy girl.
Was.
I grew up socially awkward. I have an okay family. There are good times and bad times. It wasn't really great. But it was a good life. We do get everything that we asked for, but I always have this in my mind, that for everything that's good, I expect that there will be bad. I grew up being happy, but not that quite happy because at the back of my mind, this happiness will have its price.
And right then, realizing it, that's why I became a cynic.
I started seeing negative things from a lot of people, places, things and events.
I saw my best friend's flaws. Him, a book-nerd. Nerding here and there, everywhere. He's in knee deep in grammar. Being proud to call himself a grammar Nazi. He posts Instagram pictures of himself, reading in a fancy library/cafe, with Fifty Shades of Grey on one hand and sipping a Starbucks coffee on the other. By the way, he's gay. But I still love him. He's my best friend.
And then, one day, not anymore.
Being a cynic, you could lose the ones you love with that sharp tongue of ours.
And I just started realizing that. I'm so sorry Barry.
He was just one of my few exploits, and we being not friends anymore sets him free for the first time in his life. And I know, he will come back to thank me one day.
I know.
I just know.
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Diary of a Cynic
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