The Book Of Me

Thank You

So. Here it goes.
So last night I got terrible news. My mum might have cancer. But this isn't actually to talk about her. This is the one place where I get to be selfish so I'm going to be.
I have to keep a brave face on at home to try and cheer her up. When I got to school I just started crying because I hadn't had chance to yet. Then that's where what I want to talk about comes into play. My friends. I am so lucky to be friends with the best people on this earth. I told one friend yesterday and they told me they're here for me and my mum (as them + their family are the ones that know my mum and me most). My 4 friends that I saw before school hugged me before I even said what's wrong because they could see I'm upset. They then said exactly what I needed to hear. You know the stuff like 'itll be ok' and 'its good they would of found it early' as the stuff everyone says actually helps me. Then in forms my other friend took me out and stayed with me till I calmed down enough to talk. I told another and they were nice as well. The other person I told didn't hug me like the others as she hates touching people but she patted my arm (something I often do myself because I never know what to say. It's now known how much I actually care and I'm not just mocking them when I do it) and said my mum will be fine. All day they dealt with me snapping at everything and being almost crying all day without complaints. They tried their bests to make me laugh and didn't tell me to shut up when I was on about something they didn't care about. When was upset earlier they apologised saying their problems weren't as bad as mine. To which I said thats stupid as they are still bad to you so I don't mind them ranting

I'm thankful for them being there and caring. If you read this (and you'll definitely know who you are) I love you. God it's weird to say that. A phrase usually used in a romantic context but not now. But I love you all. You mean the world to me.

This is Hayley signing out! XX
Dated 11/01/17