dear john,
i feel like i need to say thank you.
all i feel is the hurt and desperation, but the only reason i feel these things is because i love you. and i know that you love me, even if you won't say it, and even if it's not in the way i want it to.
you were there when i really needed someone to be and you do care about me, although sometimes i get paranoid and think that you don't.
sometimes i think that i wouldn't be as sad as i am if it wasn't for you, but really, i wouldn't be as happy as i am if it wasn't for you. it's just, things get complicated.
i think we all know that.
love, me.
