dear john,
i don't know, john. that's the thing. i just don't know.
i want to live and i want to die.
i love you and i hate you.
i want someone to care and i want no-one to care.
i don't know.
but i am in love with you and willing to surrender my heart to yours. if you wish to destroy it, go ahead. it's your choice.
(i'm in love with you but i hate you for making me weak.)
love, me.
