if you've read this all the way to the end... thank you.
you've obviously got a lot of time on your hands! i can relate to that, don't worry.
but, if you've read this far, i'm guessing that you've gone through something similar, and you can understand some of these chapters. and in that case, i'm sorry. i hope it has or will work out for you.
i'm not so great at these author's notes, by the way.
mainly, i just wanted to say i'm overwhelmed by the support on this book; it's something i was never expecting.
for those of you that know me, you know this isn't my real (or main) account. and that grace isn't my real name.
but this is real. john is real. these feelings are real. these one hundred or so chapters you've read... these are all real.
i would have changed john's name too, but i was inspired to write this story by the cliché of "dear john" and, ultimately, the song by taylor swift.
also, i haven't changed anyone else's name. all these characters and events... they happened. beth got "pregnant" (eh, it's a long story) but she had an abortion. the lonely girl still wanders to boyfriend among boyfriend. i'd also like to point out that although most of these events are real, a lot of this is dramatised and one of the chapters is entirely fiction.
i started writing this book mid-december and now it is mid-april. it's been quite hard sometimes. it's been easy the other times. i've laughed and i've cried - a lot.
sorry i keep babbling on. i just feel like there's so much more to say. there's no-one i can actually talk to about how i feel for john, because no-one knows. this book has been a helpful release for me.
i haven't told you everything in this book. there are some things that remain between me and john, or simply just myself, because that's the way it is.
but, yeah. thanks for reading. and leaving your comments. there's a lot to reply to, but i've read every single one. (some of them made me laugh, some of them comforted me, some of them made me want to cry (in a good way).)
you're all beautiful.
