If Only We Could Have-A Rogue One Fanfiction

Like a Discarded Doll

It's so dark here.

It seems like night time, but there are no stars. No moons.

I'm blindly groping my way through nothingness.

What am I?

Why am I here?

What is this place?

I don't know anything anymore.

It's so dark here.

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I'm floating.

How long has it been?

Since the explosions and all hell breaking loose?

I can hear beeping.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Nothing.

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Something's happening.

Something big.

I can sense it.

Something is happening that I don't know about.

But everything's so quiet.

Everything's so dark.

And my eyes are sealed shut.

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"When's she gonna wake up?" I hear a voice ask. Luke.

"I don't know. She lost a lot of blood,. But she should be awake soon." The female Togruta doctor that I've seem a round the base more than once.

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"Jyn," a new voice sighs. "I don't know if you can hear me or not, but I need to tell you."

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It's Cass.

"I need you to know that I would have gone back for you no matter what. I know you were screaming for me to leave-."

I was what?

I don't remember doing that.

But the whole ordeal was kind of a blur, so maybe I was doing that unwittingly.

"-But I want you to know that no matter what happened, no matter what you say, I will always come back for you. Always."

And I you, I think, wishing I could say it out loud.

He holds my hand for a little bit, and I feel my eyes stinging. I feel the tears coming on. Somehow, one tear leaks through my sealed eyelids and rolls out of the corner of my eye.

I hear him gasp. "Jyn?"

And then, somehow, I finally find the strength to open my eyes again.

And then he's there, he's in front of me, and he's real again, and for a moment, we stare, but unknowingly, we end up holding and hugging each other, and me crying "Obi-Wan, Obi-Wan, he's gone now, he's not coming back," and Cass is whispering in my ear, "Don't you ever do that to me again, you scared me till I was half dead, don't you dare die on me too!"

"I had to get those plans out of there, no matter what. You and I both know that was the best way."

"'Most Efficient' is not synonymous with 'best', Jyn! You didn't have to put yourself in that sort of position! Never do it again, do you hear me?"

I feel an anger starting to rise within me.

I was avenging my dead comrades, our dead comrades, and here he is, scolding me for it!

"My father died fighting the Empire. My mother died fighting the Empire. Saw Gerrera, my father figure since I was abandoned, died fighting the Empire. And then I met you, I met the Rebels, and I met some new friends. Then all of them died fighting the Empire, and not one of them got a proper burial. None. I think I would be honoured to die with them. Can't you see that? Is it not as obvious as I thought I made it?" I ask, for once being absolutely and completely honest, no hiding, no truth-bending, honest.

He looks at me one last time, and I can't stand it. "I just didn't want you to get hurt again. But since you want to go and get killed, go be slaughtered by the enemy, I have nothing more to say to you." He gets up and leaves me like a discarded doll that isn't as fun to play with as it used to be.

And I'm left on a hospital bed, hearing only out of my left ear,

And I've lost one more person to add to the ever-increasing tally of losses.

I guess I really can't make anyone stay.

Especially not Cassian goddamn-his-beautiful-face Andor.

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A/N: GUYS WE HAFE A FLIPPING RANKING IN FANFICTION WE ARE FLIPPING #500-something THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Sorry for the short and depressing chapter, but it's late (actually, its early the next day) but this seems like the time I'm most inspired to write cause there's nothing left in my Wattpad library that I want to read.

I was thinking today and you know how Cumberbatch has Cumberbitches and Hiddleston has Hiddlestoners and Redmayne has Redmayniacs well maybe we could be Diego Luna's Lunatics!!!!!

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I write such long A/Ns. Does anyone actually read these?

I'm just gonna leave now.

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