At this point my ice cream had made a fall for the ground, splattered on the black tile and my feet carried me out of the shop. The tears finally made there way down my face, streaming slowly. I blinked them away only for some more to take their place. I kept walking unsure of where I was going and not bothering to wipe away the tears, for only more to escape.
What did I do to deserve this? If I knew that going to that concert would lead to this, I would never of even thought about going. If I knew that it would lead me to not be there for my father when he had died I would have stayed by his side. If I knew that my little sister would have to grow up with out her father, her idol then I wouldn't have even brought up the idea of going. Lastly if I knew that going out with Harry was going to be dangerous then why did I say yes in the first place? Maybe because in my heart somewhere I hoped that he wouldn't play me like some toy? That it wouldn't be some silly game to him? Then it clicked.
This was my fault. I could have saved my dad by not going to that stupid concert. I could have rejected Harry instead of seting myself up for a heart break. This was all to much, too crazy. I grabbed my phone again, clicking and scrolling through my contacts fianlly landing on Niall. I pressed his name, making it dial as the first ring sounded through the speaker. It took two rings before his voice filled my ears.
'Hello? Lil?' His irish accent rolled off his tounge. I caught my breath and began to speak.
'Niall, h-have you been on twitter?' I shook as I asked him, causing me to shudder. When he answered he sounded kind of confused.
'No? What has happened?' Worry instantly flooded his voice. 'Lillian, please don't tell me you were reading hate again. Those girls don't know you, you are perfect just the way you are.' He told me.
'N-no I just, just look at it yourself.' I pulled the phone away from my ear annd pressing the end button not wanting to explain any futher. Not long after 10 seconds later the same buzzing occured. I glanced at it seeing the name 'Harry<3' shining against the screen, my thumb quickly clicked the decline button. I then went to his contact name and removed the '<3' leaving it to be boring 'Harry'. I then held the top button until the power off appeared, and I did just that leaving it with a black screen.
I made it back to the flat not bothering to turn my phone back on, or even bother to try and contact anyone. I decided to ga and spend th night at my aunts as it felt like the only way to get away for a bit. I bolted for my room instantly grabbing my nike bag and stuffing everything that I need for one night in to the bag.
I didn't care what the boys made plans for tonight. I cared that Harry cheated on me. I needed time to collect myself before going out and acting like it was okay, being with a guy that broke my heart. It may seem such a big deal but when a guy like that cheats on you, you can't help but feel that way because what all the fans say is proven true... that he actually feels the same way. I paused double checking that I had everything that I need, once I checked I put the bag on my shoulders making it hang behind me. I rubbed my eyes to clear the tears and carried on my way out of the flat.
Just my luck.... I walked into Zayn as I walked out of the flat. 'Lillian?' I heard him call as I ran past. He ran towards me but the lift closed just in time, leaving him standing there wondering what was going on. The elevator dung again and I quickly walked and didn't stop when I thought I heard my name be called again. I pulled out my phone, holding the botton again and the screen came back to live with a little bing. I sighed seeing 14 missed calls and 12 new messages. I didn't bother looking at them I just rang my aunt.
After the 3rd ring she answered, 'Hello?' I said into the phone.
'Hello, Lillian why you ringing? Is everything okay?' She asked me. It wasn't but I didn't really want to tell her what was wrong.
'I was just wondering if it was okay if i came and stayed the night, hang out Gracie you know.' I explained to her. She sighed before replying.
'I don't think that is such a good idea Lil.' She said. I got a little confused. She said ring whenever you need something and you can see Gracie whenever I wanted too. 'Look Lillian don't worry about it, Gracie is fine. Everything is fine it's just not a good night.' She told me. Why doesn't she want me around there? I shook it off and shot in an 'I love you' before ending the call. Right after ending that one I got another one. My phone buzzing with 'Niall' flashing on the screen. I quickly answered the call and put the phone to my ear.
'Hello? Lillian where are you? Are you okay?' He asked me frantically sounding worried.
'I went for a walk.'
'I saw everything, it will be okay.'
I shook my head and then realised that he couldn't see me. 'It was my fault' I told him. As more tears formed and rolling down my cheeks and on to my shirt, that now looked like there was paint splatters on it. He started to speak but I cut him off before he could even get close to the end of the sentance. 'No Niall you don't understand, It has been what a week? And look at how much mess that i have made, I can't imagine what living with you will bring. I regret going to your concert I could have saved my dad.' I said nearly screaming in to the phone. I hung up not wanting to hear or explain anymore. I looked around to see scrunched up faces in confusion looking at me and some shooting me dirty looks. i took a deep breath letting it out shakily and wiping away the tears from my face.
What was I suppose to do now? I had no where to go and nothing to do. What if....
