'We should take you to the hospital.' Liam stated breaking the silence, 'It looks pretty deep.' I nodded in agreement telling them that I ended up slipping and that I didn't mean to do it in purpose. 'What did you ermmm use?' Liam asked. I pointed to my bag. Liam pulled out the knife without saying a word and taking it back into the kitchen.
I felt really light headed once I had got to the car, as I didn't want to worry Liam anymore I kept it to myself. It took a lot of convincing for Lou and Niall to stay at home but I didn't want them to see me like this. Liam was silent for the whole drive to the hospital. We wasn't there very long as we waited a few minuets to get stiched up, which was truly painful. Once I got bandaged up we made our way back to the car. The hospital luckly didnt ask to many questions about how it happened as the accepted that it was just an accident. As far as anyone was to know it was an accident.
'So what made you think about doing it?' Liam finally asked on our drive home. I let out a deep breath.
'It was just the heat of the moment. At that point I thought it was the right thing to do.' I said truthfuly.
'Cutting is never the right thing to do Lillian, I know you are getting a lot of hate but that is no need to do that because it is those who matter don't mind but those who mind don't matter. Danielle got hate like you did, went through several cheating stories like you did today, she cried about them yes but she knew she had us. Don't forget that we are all here you you no matter what happens.' He said and flashed a smile. I nodded not really knowing what to say.
'Thank you and i'm sorry you had to see this.' I said as we pulled back home.
I entered the flat earning worried looks. Even a sad looking Harry without his friend friend.
'Was it that bad?' Louis asked walking towards me looking at this huge bandage that clung to my arm. I gave a slight nod to his question. 'I am sorry Lil-bear' He said like a small child, hugging my trying to avoid my arm. It stung still a little but it wasn't unbearable.
'Can someone please fill us in about what happened?' Zayn asked looking confused but more worried. I sighed not really wanting to tell them what happened.
'Not yet.' I said simply 'Im sorry but I don't mind if you want to talk about it with Liam and Lou.' I looked at the time, it was 6:57. 'Guys I have had a long day so I think I am going to head off home and bed.' feeling more and more tired as time went on.
'Wait' Harry said quickly 'Can I talk to you please?' He looked sympathetic and concerned. He followed me out into the hall. I raised my eyebrow asking what the hell he wanted me for. 'Listen Lillian, those pictures are old. They always bring them up when i am happy and I end up loosing the girl. I don't want this to happen with you.' He said sadly.
'Harry it doesn't matter if it happened or not. It made me realize that I shouldn't have let our relationship esculate so quickly.'
'I understand.' He said softly before I walked into out flat and straight to my room. I went straight for my bed laying down facing the ceiling. I found myself silently crying before I fell asleep.
Niall's P.O.V
I just can't believe that Lil was willing to do that to herself. I couldn't help but think that I was part of the reason, not directly but it was the people who claimed to be our fans that made her feel this way. I really wish that she never believed the bulls#!t that was made up on twitter, our fans have thier greatiest moments then they do have their worst. Hating on the people we love is like hating on us. You wouldn't want friends and familt to be treated like that. Most importantly you wouldn't want to be treated like that.
'Can you please explain it to me Niall?' Zayn asked. 'I am really lost.' I am guessing that he wasn't really involed in the situation and no-one bothered to fell him in.
'Well....' I started and explained eveything that I knew. I wondered if anything happened to her when she was a child which made her want to do this? I wanted to ask her but I knew that she needed time to cool off first.
'Wow.' Zayn managed to say taking everything in. 'Do you like her Nialler?' He asked softly.
'Yes of course I like her. She is a sweet girl and a great friend.' I exclaimed.
Zayn shook his head, 'No I mean really like her. Like you want to date her. That kind of like.' He tried to explain but confused himself.
I shrugged. 'I don't really know.' I lied. I felt something when we kissed, I have no idea what but I knew that she was ment to be my princess not Harry's. As much as I love him, he gets every girl wrapped around his finger and even when I make it obvious to them that I like her he goes and works his magic. I shook off my feelings.
The clock reads 8:46. It wasn't that late but I was already tired. I said my goodbyes and made my way back to m-our flat. Before heading to my room I checked on Lillian. She looked so cute asleep wrapped up in the cover with just her head poking out. I silently closed the door and dragged my feet until I fell onto my bed falling asleep in minuets.
