Not the Same

Chapter twenty-five

I can honestly say that standing in the middle of campus, kissing Cameron was the last thing I thought was going to happen when I left my dorm room today.

However, I'm not saying that this is a bad thing. In fact, it's quite the opposite.

Kissing Cameron makes me feel jolts of electricity, not just sparks.

Cameron rests his hands on my hips, steadying me while I run my hands through his messy hair.

It's only until Eric wolf whistles that I'm brought back to reality and reluctantly pull away from Cameron. We both stare at each other intensely.

Cameron's eyes are a darker shade of blue and his chest rises up and down somewhat quickly. I find myself blushing under his intense gaze.

"Go on a date with me," Cameron says once he catches his breath. "A real date."

"But what if I don't want to," I tease, making Cameron pull me closer, which I didn't know was physically possible at this point.

"I think we both know that you do," he whispers huskily, sending chills up my spine.

It's been two weeks since my makeout session with Cameron.

Two amazing weeks filled with lots of affection and happiness.

In these past two weeks, Cameron and I have gotten even closer. We walk each other to class every morning and try to spend as much time together as we can.

We've already decided that we're going to spend Thanksgiving together at his house. We both agreed that sitting through a meal at my house would definitely not be very pleasant under the circumstances.

Even if I wasn't in this huge fight with my family having Thanksgiving dinner together wouldn't be pleasant.

It's not like my family even wanted me at Thanksgiving anyway. Only my mother would invite me to Thanksgiving dinner by sending me a Google form.

It wasn't even a thoughtful Google form. All it said was:

Thanksgiving dinner: are you coming or not? Check yes or no.

Part of me wished there was a section that said, "Include your own response."

Then again, I don't think my mother would take "I'm not coming to your stupid dinner because you're all horrible and made me feel so much hatred towards myself for years" very well.

So instead I just checked the "no" option and that was that.

Cameron has been very supportive throughout all of this. Unfortunately, he has witnessed how horrible my parents can be. He already knew about my brother and how terrible he is, to which I still don't know how. I mean sure, Adam is a jerk, anyone could tell that, but as I have already figured out, Adam and Cameron have a past, and not a very good one.

There's this little part of me, okay this hug part of me which feels like it's going to take control of my body, that wants to know what happened between them, but as I have already learned the hard way, going down this path will only cause tension between Cameron and I and I definitely don't want to ruin what we have.

Today has been a long, eventful day, and it's not even lunchtime yet. I spent the morning in sociology, working on the outline for my big project, which I still have to actually start. Cameron said he would be a part of my project, which I'm really grateful for. This is my project where I have to go out in public and defy social norms. Believe it or not, I'm not the kind of person who likes to draw attention to myself; shocking, I know. After sociology, I went to the library where I finished my outline and came up with ideas for my project. It took me three hours, but I finally came up with a plan that didn't make me feel like I would pee my pants. After finally escaping the library, I met up with Cameron, Eric and Dan for lunch. Eric spent most of our lunchtime sharing some weird dream he had last night, which ended up leading to a conversation no one was expecting, but then again, we should always expect something random with Eric.