Me, Mew & You * Dan x Reader *

Chapter 14

You wake to the sweet smell of Dan's cologne engulfing you. You lift your head but quickly plunk it back down onto the pillow, a raging pain arising from inside your brain. It felt like a freaking nuclear attack. Suddenly, a large weight fell onto your shoulders. You weren't in your bed.
You were in Dan's.
"Oh sh*t, what happened." You say through gritted teeth. As if he was standing outside the door, Phil rushes in, looking slightly panicked.
"Are you okay Y/N?" I heard you from outside and it didn't sound alright.." You smile at Phil worrying over you. Then you remember the situation.
"Phil. D-do you know if anything, um, happened, last night?" You ask sheepishly.
"What? Oh- No no, nothing 'happened'." Phil said, blushing like a Beetroot.
"Sorry Phil, I just can't remember anything from last night. It all got so crazy and I just- can't remember." You blush at the end, realising you repeated yourself. Phil smiled slightly and sat on the end of dan's bed, you tried to adjust your weight but your body felt tied to the bed.
" Well, when you got home you were completely out cold, and Dan carried you here, then proceeded to vomit all over the bathroom tiles. I think he's still there now." Phil chuckles.
"But dan wasn't drunk?" You question phil.
"Alcohol takes a while to kick in with dan, which means sometimes it may not seem like it, but he'll be tripping over air in a couple of hours or so." You let out a long held in breath, relieved that you didn't do anything too stupid. Getting drunk was one thing, but sleeping with someone you had idolised most of your life? You couldn't imagine the regret that you would feel. Especially if it was a drunk decision. PHIL looks at you again and smiles. He gets up to leave closing the door halfway behind him.
"Y/N?" PHIL calls from the hallway, peeping his head through the gap of the door.
"He made sure you were okay first. He cares." He says, a tone of finality in his voice.
"He cares." You mumble back to yourself, smiling like an idiot.

=•=

"Sometimes I wish I never had to make contact with other humans." Dan mumbles from beside you on the couch in the lounge room, as you both eat a concoction of dry cereal & gummy bears/left over cookie dough & pizza whilst watching rogue one religiously. You look over at him and smirk.
"Now why is that biggest extrovert I know?" You say, a strong sarcastic tone in your voice.
"Because it would mean that I would remember if I actually did put my legs through my shirt and my head into my pants whilst running around the flat at 2 in the morning." He says, making you both cringe and laugh at the same time.
"Oh god I so wish I could remember that." You laugh. The conversation quickly descended into dan staring at you intently, the sound of chatting from the movie the only sound. Dan quickly clicks it off, and continues to stare.
"Dan?" You ask, snapping your fingers in front of his face.
"We never got to talk. Last night I mean. Well, considering the situation, I- I think we should-"
"Talk." You finish.
"Yes. Talk. About, the- subject of the situation."
"Dan, y-you kissed me."
"Really? I didn't know."
"Dan, this isn't time for jokes." You say, the serious sound of your voice snapping dan out of his jokes.
"So what if I kissed you! It's not like I killed your pet chinchilla!" He retorts, an offensive tone entwined into his English accent.
"So it meant nothing to you? Nothing at all? You know what, phil was wrong." You say, trying to hide the hurt in your voice, keeping the wobble in your throat to a minimum.
"What!? What did Phil say?!" Dan exclaims, standing up over you, making you feel more insignificant than you already did.
" he said you cared." You say finally say, not hiding the pain in your voice. At these words dan's furrowed brow and menacing  facial expression faded away, to leave a guilty sad one. He slowly sat down next to you on the couch.
"Y/N, I care. I care so much that I'm afraid that I'm going to mess things up with you. With us." Dan says softly, rubbing your shoulder. You say nothing, pondering dan's words.
"I'm afraid that if I tell you that I want to kiss you again we will be lying to the people we love for the rest of our relationship." He softly whispers into your hair. You lift your head to look at him, and smirk slightly.
"You want to kiss me again?"
"Didn't drunk dan already establish that?" He says smiling. Slowly he leans in and pecks you on the nose, making you smile. Slowly, your smile fades away.
"I can't tell her."
" Tell who?" Dan asks, confused. You draw in a deep breath not liking where this was going.
"I can't tell Mae about- about us. About this. About... Everything." You say, searching for words.
"Y/N, we can't keep this from people anymore. If we want this to work we have to tell mae and phil!" Dan says, his voice kind but steady. You felt a breakdown coming, but you try to hide the tears welling in your eyes.
"Dan, I-I can't. I'll hurt her. More then she already is." You say weakly, feeling years slip down your cheeks. You can feel dan's head lower next to you, his hands slipping around your waist. He was giving you a hug.
"Y/N?" Dan says softly, turning you to face him.
"It's okay, Y/N, you can tell me stuff if you really need to." He says, referencing the incident with the bubble tea and the tampons.
"Mae, her dad, he-he has..." You try to finish but your afraid that you'll converge into a sobbing mess. Maes dad was as much a father to you as he was a father to Mae. He meant so much to you, and so did Mae.
But so did dan.
"He has cancer. He isn't gonna make it, dan." You say softly, a flow of tears flowing down your cheeks. You make a small hiccuping sound, and dan chuckles.
"I'm here for you, okay Y/N? You hear me? I'll always be here for you." He says, a sincerity in his eyes and voice. And you knew he was right. Even before he knew who you were he and Ohio were there for you. If you were sad or angry or anxious they were there. They were always there.
You knew what you had to do.
Together.
"Dan, will you tell her with me?" You ask, looking up at him with pleading eyes.
"Of course I can-" dan's interrupted by phil bouncing into the room, holding his phone out like a trophy.
"Guess who got us all invited to Hazel's tonight? This guy! Were all going, and dress fancy because we're going out!" He squeals like a little girl, making you and dan chuckle.
"Something to take our minds off." Dan whispers into your ear as phil bounds out of the room again, humming the Mario theme.

A/N: woohoo what a dramatic chapter! Sorry I haven't uploaded in a while, but I didn't have internet for a while so I needed some time on tumblr to myself, you know what I mean? Hope you enjoyed!
Love Essie 😸