Crossing Family Boundaries.

What Have I Done😨😱[PG. 2]

Could god ever forgive me for what i have done. And if you didn't catch on to what might have been my problem yet your dumb it was because I'm pregnant, yes I'm pregnant with Jamal's baby the girl who got pregnant by her cousin that shit sounds sad when i say it oh god i swear i just want to end it all and i know your thinking "Well how did you know you were pregnant and tell us how it happened" It was on Christmas after everybody laughed, open presents, and ate food. Jamal was driving his car and he was going back to his house and i wanted to come too like i said my aunts house was small but his mom's house which is also my other aunts house her house was big and i needed space so he said come along with him and his friend who he was gonna drop off home first, his friend was cute he was hella tall and lightskin you know how i like my lightskin guys. I didn't say much in the car it was pretty much just him and his friend talking it was like i was never there which is nothing new to me i get the same treatment at home, his friend stayed a little far from my aunts house it felt like we were driving for hours I'm saying that like i was doing the driving. We finally got to his friends house and his friend got out of the car and he asked me did i want to sit in the front, at first i was a little skeptical about it i was thinking what if he tries something but at the same time i was telling myself maybe he forgot about it and moved on that stuff happened years ago but it was hard to let it go because everytime i see him i think about it. We were on our way back he didn't say anything to me or looked at me all he did was just turn his music up loud like i wasn't even there.