Crossing Family Boundaries.

Second Thoughts🤔⁉️[PG. 4]

The next i felt so bad i was even thinking about it last night i couldn't sleep. He texted me the next day saying how his cousin told him not to talk to me no more which made me really upset, and i got even more upset but only at myself because i made up a lie trying to cover it up which made it worse because Korey wanted to see me face to face as a way to make it up to him and which i did promise i could but knowing i couldn't so i just stopped talking to him and deleted him off of social media till this day i still think about Korey hoping he would forgive me. But i only have myself to blame i kept lying and lying to someone who was very special to me and i made a mistake by telling him to ahow up to my house but, i'm long off subject i just felt like someone should know but this story also leads me to believe my cousin was my dream guy as well which was very strange like how can your own family member, blood line, aka cousin could be your dream guy which sounded ridiculous in my head. Jamal was this lightskin almost to browskin tall guy with braces and a deep voice that was very attractive eww I'm so disgusting and i know it but, he also had it going on for himself, he had a car and he went to college if anything i liked in a guy was is goals and education which he did have goals. I use to think and still do feel like i could go to hell for what we were doing and i felt like god gave me a test which was him, he was the test and he was watching me seeing what i would do and which i failed that test miserably because i had sexual encounters with a family member which is known around here for Insest and me the disgusting human being who committed insest.