Really I'm only thinking so much of these things is because I'm really trying to ignore the idea that we're actually going to California to see my other family. Yes were back on this like why the hell now should we go visit some people we haven't seen nor spoke to in years it's not like they ever tried to contact us i find it so stupid and irrelevant i know there our family but who cares our Christmas was going fine for the past few years. But I'm only doing this for my grandma nobody else and i just don't want to be there, were gonna be cramped up in my aunts small like closet house with 30 something people and no air circulating through the atmosphere. I most definitely don't want to be there if my cousin will be there, the one I've been avoiding well was trying to until they were ruined my cousin Jamal is his name well just Jamal we don't talk like not at all unless we have to or were at a family reunion. The only time we would speak if he says hi to me and i say hey back, around the two of us it could get awkward me and him didn't have that cousin kind of bond it was more of a partners thing, it would get more deeper and sexual but not the fucking kind of sexual thats just wrong but what we did for a long period of time was just as wrong. I knew what we were doing was wrong and i aways felt like god was gonna punish me or not forgive me for doing insest, like only disgusting or low self esteem kind of people which i do have low self esteem would only do this i had that power to stop what we were doing and instead i let it continue and just sit there to let it happen. I know people would think i enjoyed it which apart of me did, and i could never understand why if i new it was wrong what does that make me.
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Crossing Family Boundaries.
ChickLitThis story is based on true events. It's about this 16 year old girl named Ari who thinks the world is against her and how she thinks love will not find her, but little did she know the love she was looking for was hidden deep in a soul of a family...
