My Angel

Im sorry...

(Genji pov)

I felt my eyes tearing up as I cried alone in my room. Ashamed, I covered my body in my white covers. I felt disgusted with myself.

What am i? What am I going to do now? Where do I belong?......
Why did this have to happen to me?!
...it's all my fault! I should have listened to him!

I felt completely overtaken by depression as I hid myself away from the world.

Earlier I had completely rejected Angela and demanded to be left alone.
the look in her eyes was pure shock as she quickly left the room...
I must have looked like a monster to her! I felt horrible!

I.....I....I'm sorry Angela...

Time passes in my room as I remained consumed by my fear of myself.  I didn't know what to do. My family was all dead! And so am I!
My life is over!..

I slowed my breathing as I began to clam myself down. My body began to feel more settled as a familiar voice called from behind.

"...Genji?" She sounded concerned and worried.

I raised out of my bed slowly as I thought quickly for words. I knew I had treated her wrong and I must apologize.

"Angela I... I'm sorry" my voice stumbled as she walked in calmly and sat down with me on my bed.

"I don't know what came over me! I'm so sorry!" I continued to apologize.

Her beautiful and understanding blue eyes looked down softly to mine as she gave a small smile.

"Its ok Genji your going through a tough time, I understand" she seemed overly calm and forgiving.

"Its just that I miss my family so much, I wish it would go back to the way it was, before my brother!...... I could have done something..." I said trying to explain myself.

Angela rested her hand onto my robotic one and stroked it softly.
"Its ok Genji I understand, I lost my family too..." she sounded slightly hesitant to share her story.

"When I was younger I had a nice family, my mother was a scientist and my farther was a doctor we would fight sometimes, laugh about random things together... then the omnic crisis hit and..... I lost them both"

"I was left all alone... I was in a bad place for a while before I decided to put my life to good use. I dedicated my life to helping others, I got offered a job at Overwatch and I took it... I just wanted to help others so they wouldn't have to suffer like I did" her voice was Soft and sad as she spoke.

I felt a drop in my heart as I understood how much pain she must have gone through. I felt closer to her now as we had both lost our families and left to fend for ourselves.

My eyes widened as I noticed how close we were sitting together. She was still touching my hand and she sat inches close to me. I felt a shock of embarrassment run through me as my checks blushed red.

I pulled myself back from her as I knew I wouldn't be any good. I am half omnic I had nothing to offer her. Not with a body like this. I just couldn't...

I lowered my eyelids slowly as I faced downwards and away from her beautiful face. She glanced down at me as she clearly cared a lot about my feelings.

"I'm sorry to hear that" I said with a sad tone as I looked back up at her with gentle eyes.

"Its ok Genji you see you can talk about me to any feelings you have because I will understand" Angela's voice was sweet and comforting as we sat together.

"Well I always thought my brother was happy with me, he never mentioned anything about me doing something wrong, I didn't know... if I did I would have done something!"

"I rarely got to be with him as we grew up, he would always be made to train privately with farther, I'd have plenty of free time to mess around and go out with friends, Hanzo never got to have any fun, it was always training and strict rules" I explained with a sad and quieter tone.

"So why did Hanzo kill you? What did you do?" Angela asked curiously.

"I don't know... after farther died Hanzo as the eldest son, he was made the new leader of the clan, I rarely ever saw him as he was always on missions or organization work and then one day he came up to me and demanded that I would join him in the front lines of his work..."

"...but I didn't want any part of our families criminal business, and the missions Hanzo works with require him to assassinate innocents and cause crime and... I didn't want any part of it..."

"He insisted but I refused, after a while Hanzo was informed by the elders of our group that I would have to join in the family business or he would have to... eliminate me! As I'd pose a threat to the clan" I stumbled as I paused.

"You still refused? Even though you knew Hanzo would have to kill you?" Angela asked with a friendly look to me.

"Well yes I didn't want any part of it, I had hoped I would be able to talk it out with Hanzo... and that he would maybe let me go and leave the clan... but he was consumed by his pride and honour that he..." My voice was cut off as another tear sheared from my green shiny eyes.

Angela sat patiently next to me as she remained close and supportive. Her eyes felt reassuring to me and allowed me to fell confident enough to continue.

"He met me in the main hall of the Shimada palace, he demanded I join him or I would have to die! I refused of course and so he set upon me, slicing my body with his sword... I refused to draw my sword in him as I loved my brother..."

"My dragon was released from my body... he wanted to protect me and so was Hanzo's, He used both his dragons to fight me... I was out numbered...  He was too strong!..."

"And I ....my soul was still holding on to my body refusing to let go, I could feel it, he told me he 'Genji... I'm sorry' everything went black and that was then when I saw you..."  I finished.

Angela stared down at me with a concerned face as she felt sympathy for me. I glared down at her small hands that were jotting down notes on some paper. I felt happy to have talked to someone about my feelings and about my brother.

"Thank you again Angela" I said slowly as Angela looked up a little confused.

"For what Genji?" She asked with a smile.

"For listening and understanding me I've wanted to talk to someone about it so... Thank you" I said with a smile.

"No problem" she replied before leaving me for the night.