Shattered - |d.s|

T w e n t y - O n e

The cars zoom pass, headlights shining bright as they travel to their destination. I sit on top of the bridge, my feet dangling over the other side.

I can fall and it would be over. Everything will be over. I can erase my self from the world. I can not exist. I'll be gone.

Negative thoughts rush around my brain, leaving no signs of happiness.

My mother always knew something was wrong with me. She expected me to be perfect like Kyle but, she ended up giving birth to this broken girl. Growing up I was never happy. I had everything, I was blessed but, the sadness still loomed over me. She tried to help me. She refused to believe anything was wrong with me. She would always make sure I was okay, and I lied. I always lied. I acted like I was happy even though I was dying inside everyday. I was always wearing a mask. Every night, I would take the mask off. Night time was the only place where I could be myself.

Dad would always ignore me. He acted like he liked me but, in reality I knew he didn't. I didn't blame him.

Who would want a broken princess instead of a perfect princess?

"Ellie, get off what are you doing." Dan yells, making my head snap to his direction.

"Just let me go. I want to be free from my nightmares, I want the demons to vanish."  I yell back, wiping the tears from my face.

"I can fix you." He calmly says, inching his way towards me.

"No you can't Daniel, no one can." I scream back, getting ready to leap. I close my eyes breathing deeply.

"Yes I can Ellie, stop beating yourself down. Why don't you realise your amazing? Your my world Ellie, I'll help you. Even if I end up dying trying to help you, I will."

"Dan don't you see? I'm nothing. I'm not worthy of being loved. Stop wasting your time on me. Someone else can you give happiness but, I'll always just give you pain. Look at me Dan. I'm fucking nothing. I caused a fight between you and Kyle. I caused you to come early from England and rescue my sorry ass. It's all my fault. I don't deserve you. I'm the flower with missing petals, no one cares about me." I turn around, staring down at the cars.

This is what you wanted didn't you. My mind taunts me. Before I can jump, two protective arms wrap around waist. He carries me bridal style and I hit him repetitively on the chest. He continues to let me until I finally have no strength anymore. The voices in my head stop, causing an eery silence. I bury my head in his chest, sobbing silently. He continuously mutters 'it's okay' 'I'm here love'.

When we get home he takes me straight to my room and lays me down on the bed. He wraps the duvet around me and walks to the other side. He comfortable lays next me, his arms around my waist. I turn over so I'm facing me. He kisses me everywhere; my jaw, my cheek, my nose. I tug at his hair, wanting more. Needing more. His beautiful blue eyes fix into my brown eyes. He begins to frown but in a split second he smiles.He lightly kisses my forehead.

"You know, you are quite strong." He chuckles, I stare at him with raised eyebrows until I finally realise, he's talking about when I started hitting him. I smirk, pecking his lips.

"I'm sorry about Kyle, I don't know what's going to happen, but I'll make it right." I whisper, he nods, nuzzling his head near my neck and kissing it.

"I missed you so fucking much! How was England?" I muttered.

"It was wicked! But, I missed you so much! I even got gifts for you but there packed in my bag. My mum is dying to see you, she wanted you to tag along. Music wise, everything's coming together. Finally, we've recorded new songs which are going to be released really soon."

"That's good! I'm so proud of you my Pookiebear." I giggle, poking his cheek.

"You don't know how I missed that name." He muttered, pulling me so I was on top of him. He kissed my lips forcefully and passionately.

"I love you Ellie." He whispers, kissing my nose.

"I love you too Dan." I reply.

We ended up sleeping together, our bodies intertwined with each other. He quietly hummed, our eyes closed. The sleep was the most peaceful sleep I have gotten in weeks.

"Get up beautiful." A voice says, I groan loudly and turn the other way.

"One more minute" I mutter, pulling the duvet closer to my face.

"Get up darling, I don't want to go downstairs by myself." I open my eyes and turn to him. His hair is in every direction, dark circles underneath his eyes. His blue eyes look tired.

"Fine" I groan and sit up. He cheekily smiles and I kiss him.

After using the bathroom we walk hand in hand downstairs. The others sat around the sofa, playing the xbox. I can sense that Dan is nervous. Nervous of my own brother. I squeeze his hands and he looks at me and smiles. But the smile doesn't reach his face.

"Can I talk to you and him privately." Kyle snaps, pointing towards me and Dan. I nod and follow him into the kitchen.

We sit down by the table, Dan on one side and Kyle on the other.

"Where did you go last night? And no bullshitting to me anymore." He asks.

"I got angry so I went by the bridge, I sat on the railing. Then Dan found me and he basically saved my life." I mutter, looking down.

"I'm not going to forgive you for what you did but, thank you." He sighs, looking at Dan. He tenses a bit but then nods his head.

"He didn't do anything Kyle, he saved me. You have no reason to be angry at him. Imagine if he wasn't there. I would have died Kyle." I argue.

"I know, but I can't forgive him easily. He broke my trust."

"I'm sorry Kyle." Dan apologised, his voice cracking. We both looked at him while he looked at the floor.

"How did you find me?" I ask, he looks up, his eyes on the edge of tears.

"Four years ago, my girlfriend at that time died. We had been together for ages, she was everything to me. Her name was Bella. When I first saw you, I saw her. She was exactly like you. One time, she got pissed and she also ran to a bridge. It took me ages to find her. When I was out looking for you, I remembered the bridge that you painted. It was like I suddenly understood where you would be. So I ran and I saw you." He admits.

"You told us that she broke up with you." Kyle softly says.

"I lied. I was the reason she died. She was coming to see us perform live and she died in a car crash. I lied saying I was heart broken when in fact I was depressed. I didn't tell you Ellie because how could a broken boy fix a broken girl?" He states, I reach my hand onto his face and wipe away the tears that were slowly falling on his beautiful face.

"I'm so sorry" I mumble, kissing his lips. He slowly smiled, his eyes twinkling. We stared at each other, completely lost in each other's eyes. Kyle coughs causing us to look away.

"Well I'm going to go. Thanks for being honest and I'm sorry." He gets up and lightly squeezes Dan's shoulder. He walks away, closing the kitchen door.

"Help me unpack" Dan pleads.

"Of course." I smile at him, he takes my hand and intertwines it.

A/N

I have so much planned for this book!
I also haven't proof read this
The depressing stuff is nearly over but not for long ;)
When's your birthday and how old are you?