My Brittle Barricade

Chapter 18

The bell ran and I did the same as yesterday got into line and everyone had there books with them so I grabbed them before I joined the line and went into the eating hall and sat down and the same thing happen as yesterday.
We all waited for the head master to sit Down and then eat.

When we had all finish the head master said " table A and B class and table C kitchen duty , table D tidy duty. "

I was in table B and so I followed the girl in front of me and went into a class room and I sat down beside her, and the girl behind me sat beside me.

I thought this school or what ever it is is so unusual.
No one speaks to each other and it only girls and the teacher or whatever you want to call them hit us when they are not happy with us.

They were handing out a couple sheets to everyone and when I got mine it was like 3 pages stabled together.
On the cover was assignment analysis and a table number and space to write something I looked at the table and  it had a number on it 555246
No one was looking at the sheets so I just done as everyone else.

Someone at the front of the classroom Said "rule 1 do not talk  , rule 2 do not cheat ,rule 3 complete the question within 1 hours  anyone who disobeys these will get hit.
You may start now"

I wrote down the number 555246 and looked at the first pages
It was question with a tiny space bar under them. I looked at the question and started answering them.

Question 1
What makes you special?
Nothing makes me special

Question 2
What's your biggest regret.?
I should have died that day not them.

Question 3
Name one thing that you have done right.?
So far I have done nothing right.

Question 4
What makes you happy/ sad.?
Nothing makes me happy, I'm sad because I lost them. The one thing I wanted the Most and I lost it.

Question 5
Where do you see yourself in 5 year.?
Trapped in a life I'm not happy with.

Question 6
Where do you see yourself in 10 years.?
Still trapped.

Question 7
What do you believe.?
Nothing good will ever happens to me.

Question 8
Will you give up.?
Everything was taken away from me so I have nothing more to give up.

Question 9
Do you respect everyone in the building.?
No

Question 10
Will you have to be punished for your answers.?
I can't get punished anymore.

That was one page done.
I liked writing out my answers I don't know what for or who they are for but I hope they enjoy the darkness that I have to live with , I hope that they can understand a fraction of what I have lost.
Or they might just think I'm crazy and hit me until I give them the answers they want.
It not like they know my story.

Let's move in the the last page.
It only had one questions and the rest of the page was for your answer.
This was going  to be good let them read and enjoy.

Final question.
Write down why you should not be punished and why would should stay.

Ok so for the person that is reading I'm guessing it going to be one of those madams then they won't like it and give it to mr wills or head master.
So this is for you.
You know I'm new here and I know that isn't a good enough reason for me not to get hit but I know that everyone answers these question everyday and they know the rights answer to write down but I don't and I will write down what I feel and that isn't great.
I'm sorry that these answers aren't up to your high standards but your not to my standards. This place isn't to my standards. What's with the no talking like ever , and getting punished every time your breath.
And considering that you like asking everyone personal questions I have one for you can I hit you when I want to?  Was your first reaction no well for me to walk in this place yesterday that's my reaction too.
I do not want to get hit or punished.  I've had enough of that.
And if your still reading this wow I can't believe your actually reading it.
And I know your probably going to be angry your not reading something that you want to be reading , all  those perfect answers, writing out by everyone. Well life isn't perfection , my isn't.
And you want to know why I should stay.
Why do I want to stay ohh wait I don't want to stay here , are you mad , crazy , stupid, I never wanted to come here in the first place I was pushed into a car and brought here.
I would love to leave but I have every single person on me and every Time i breath or move in a way they don't like I get hit .
I got hit 26 times in the last 2 days .
That's not right , this place and these people isn't right.
But I guess we will be talking about this in your office , when your be angry and mad and probably have 3 -4 madam around you and you all plan to punish me but I don't really care.
Guess I'll see you in your office very soon .
Just know your can't punish me anymore there nothing left.
You can hit me all you like it's just a sharp pain but it dies down after a while then maybe a bruise but that fades and will be forgotten.

And like that the test was over .
The madams took the pages and we walked back to the room and got lock in.
I just sat on the bed and it must of been 3 hours later my door unlocked and some one said " head master want to speak to you now"
I knew this would happen I followed her and sat right in front of him and he looked angry.
I disobey his order and I guess he didn't like what he saw when he got my test.
But I didn't mind it he couldn't do much more to me.
In fact In couldn't do anything to me.