My Brittle Barricade

Chapter 12

So I woke up on someone.
It took me a minute to really wake up and all I could say was "what time is it ?"
They then replied with " it nearly 8am ".
I opened my eye and they met nicks.
I sat up and backed away from him.
I was shocked that he would do this , he got into bed with me.
I said " you have to leave now , Meredith will come in and see you ".
I know when Meredith wakes up she come in and sleep with me in the morning until we both have too get ready for school.
And it was Wednesday and I told nick " get up and leave please .."
he just looked at me and said " nope "
I then remembered what Emily said in the bathroom in school .. be strong and don't let him control the situation.

I turned around and said " nick I want you out of my bed and out of my room now .. I going out and I will be back in 5 minutes with Meredith I do not want you in my room do you understand me ".

Saying that too him felt good.

He looked at me and had that smile on his face again.
He replied  to my statement  by saying " so you don't just look cute while your sleeping you look hot when you want to take control ".

He was lying on the bed and I was standing by the edge .
He then climbed over to me and grabbed my waist and kissed me.
But this kiss was nice and gentle and I liked it .. I can't didn't want it to end..
Was I falling in love .. I don't want to ..

He looked at me and said " don't worried I'll leave , I'll be back later though baby ".
Something inside on me was extremely excited to see him again then he got up and I saw him topless and he had a couple of tattoos on him and before I know he put on his clothes  and  he was climbing down the side of  the house .. it was easy to get out of that window there was a big strong tree right outside and it was easy to climb up and down it.

Me and Emily climbed it one time .. one sleepover we went onto the roof and we made it our secret place and auntie and uncle didn't know about it neither does Meredith or Johnny.

I was watching him climb down and then just disappear.
Meredith just ran in and screamed " good morning big sister"
She was so excited it was her picture day at school ..
I guess she was like Emily and loved attention.

My phone buzzed and I saw nicks name on the screen .. I have a smile on my face and Meredith saw and said " who's that from" I lied and said " Emily".
She just ran out the room .
I opened the text and read it .. nick said " have a good day at school baby ".

I still didn't like him calling me baby and I couldn't get stop smiling ..

Next thing I knew I was telling this all to Emily in the bathroom ....
She didn't  have a smile on her face ... and was not excited for me ..

" BEATRIX  you can't be serious ... you can't be in love with him. Do you not remember all those bad feeling he made you feel .. and all the bad things I told you .."
"Em lower your voice ,, I know I'm crazy thinking all this but what can I do .. I think I'm attracted to him and so what's you found out he's been in jail for a couple  of month but you don't know what for " I stated crying then " em i don't know what to do " .
I didn't want to say she didn't know him and she doesn't she has never meet him .. and she can't  find any information on him .. well none that kept me away from him ..

She then said "you need to get over him ..
My cousin is having a party Friday night come with me , meet someone new and you'll forget about him ".
"Auntie and uncle will never let me me go to a party were under age em .. we can't actually drink or get into the house party"

She said she had a plan and she'll text me the details ....then we had to go to class ..but I know I didn't like her idea ..
since we had our last school break em has changed a lot .
She's not the friend I met months ago. This new Emily parties and gets drunk and our relationship just isn't the same .
We haven't had one of our sleepover in a long time.
We've just been too busy. She's out partying and I'm at home doing homework or texting nick.

It was later in the evening now and I was on the phone with em like always spend my time on my phone speaking to my bestie ...
I was talking to her about nick and how in my last 2 classes I couldn't stop thinking about him.. and she said I need to forget about him and made me promise I will forget about him and not think or speak about that boy again and not to say his name
We came up with the idea to Call him the devil instead of his name.

I ended the call with her when Meredith came in and I was doing homework  and helping Meredith she loved doing her homework with me and I liked looking at all the kids book they the teacher gave her.. I never had them ...

Auntie Amanda came into the room and it was bedtime for Meredith and I still had homework to do so I said I'll be up here for the rest of the night and we all said our good night and the door closed ... I was still in my school uniform and I wanted to get into something more comfy   And my kiss me pj that Meredith got me.

When I finished I went to the bathroom outside my door brushed my teeth and when I came back into my bedroom nick was in the bed ... topless and in Sweatpants ... his tattoos were all on show . I kept looking at them
and he had a dirty smile on his face ... He knew I was looked at his tattoos and I could tell he worked out a lot ...let's just say I wasn't complaining ..
I said " wipe that smile off your face it creeps me out .."

I walked over too my homework table and put some books into my bag.
And as I was doing this he just said " baby I was in your wardrobe for like 2 hours "
I turned around and said " what "
He was sitting on the bottom of the bed now and he reach out and grabbed my waist..  now I was standing in between his legs .. my hand were covering my month ... he heard my conversations with Emily .. he knew I like him ... he heard it all and he had that dirty smile on his face and I was trying my best to hide mine with my hand... but I wasn't doing a good job ...

He just grabbed me and lay down now I was on top of him then I moved to the side of him. I felt weird on top of him .
now we were lying down right beside each other.. one of my hand were tracing one of tattoos on his chest. And both of his hands were wrapped around me.

For then next hour we were just talking ... about school and how he hated it and why he dropped out .. I told him that Emily was bring me to a party  and that I didn't know what to expect and he told me the craziest party he was out ..

" so this Emily wants you to call me the devil ... I've been called worst ." He said..
I replied with " well your not that bad but if your going to continue  to call me baby I'm going to call you devil and much worst "...
We were both laughing and I was so close to him now we were under the cover and wrapped around  each other ...
next thing I knew I heard footsteps coming up the stairs ... i knew it was uncle coming up going to bed ..

I looked a nick worried and whispered " what if he comes in here "
He said " he won't this late at night he going straight to bed"
I moved my head away and asked " how do you know that , you can't read his mind "
He looked at me and had that dark look in his eye and that dirty smile on his face
" trust me baby I know he wouldn't come in "

I was sitting up at this point and just looked at him .. confused to how he knew my uncle wouldn't come in ..

Nick sat beside me and said again " trust me " he then kissed me ... he kissed me nice and passionately ... the nice soft kiss the way I like ..

He stopped and said " I'll ask you again do you trust me .. I trust you baby ".
I looked at him then I looked him straight in the eyes and I knew my answer ..
I closed my eyes and I kissed him..
I then pushed him down and laid my head on his chest and are arms wrapped around each other .. I feel asleep with the biggest smile on my face ..