Beauty and the Beast

Chapter 3- That Annoying Smirk

I woke up muttering a few words as I dragged myself out of my bed and down to the kitchen. the sweet smell of pancakes and bacon fill my senses and wakes me up a little bit more as I travel down stairs to the kitchen.

"Smells delicious gram" I say as I sit at the table watching her as she cooks. I've lived with my gram ever since my mum and dad died in a car accident. which was about 5 years ago. that's one of the reasons for my bitchy attitude ever since I don't know how to let my feeling out and all I have are anger and pain And talking to certain people in a bitchy way just helps me cope with not crying in front of anyone. my gram is old though and I know she's at her dyeing days but I'm trying my hardest to keep her. and knowing it's her last days depresses me more because we both know it and she's the last of my family except for my dad's side but I never knew them.

"Will you grab some plates dear?" I smile at her and nod my head. I get the plates setting them down on the counter.

"Gram go sit down I will dish us" she stops and smiles while wobbling over to the table. as I finish dishing the plates I give one to gram and sit right next to her and start to eat.

"Do you have a boyfriend Sky?" I momentarily choke on my food at her question.

"Um no gram. why do you think that?"

"Well I saw a boy drop you off he looked like a nice lad if you ask me" I roll my eyes at her statement not because I know how Harry actually is but because my gram had always wanted me to go out with a bad boy. she used to always say and I quote 'you need to find a nice bad boy to get you out of the house and do something fun' just because I sit on my ass all day and eat. I wouldn't mind Harry if he didn't go to jail. Because seriously he's hot and my first thoughts before I knew about him were 'i wanna get mixed up with that' but I change my mind.

"No gram he's not my boyfriend don't overwhelm yourself" she chuckled and went back to eating. when we were both done I took our plates and set them in the sink while walking into the front room to watch the news with gram.

"So what are you doing today?" it's the same question every weekend and always the same answer.

"The usual gram just sitting home". I looked over at her while she shook her head at me. I gave her a questioning look.

"No your not. your going to the mall or shopping somewhere. because your not sitting here all day" I scoffed at her knowing I have to go out eventually but I never thought now. I might as well get going and get it over with.

"OK I will go get ready then" i got dressed in black skinny jeans. a undershirt and put a blue hoodie on with my black cons. I'm not making much effort so I just brushed my hair leaving it natural and put quick eyeliner on. I have long eyelashes anyways so I don't usually use mascara. I jogged downstairs to the door calling a goodbye to my gram and started towards downtown.

When I got downtown I couldn't help but smile. this was the downtown with small shops and cafés but led to the dark side of town which was just down the road. I stopped by a small little cafe and got a caramel frappachino for the walk to the mall, as i neared the mall i stopped before the entrance bracing myself for all the people i threw my coffee out in a nearby trash can and pushed the mall doors open getting hit by the mall air i sighed. Its probably been a month or so since i came here. how and why? you ask. Well because i don't like leaving the house because i am very anti- social and I'm way too insecure to have people judge me even though i just walked out of the house in these clothes.

i found the store i was looking for and enter casually while looking for the batman attire. i loved hot topics for the music and all the stuff they had. as i was looking for my size in the batman flats someone bumped into me and might i add it wasn't just a bump like oh sorry i just nudged you slightly. No it was a bitch get the fuck out of my way you just ruined my fucking crack walker pace. I quickly recovered though bringing myself back to reality i looked up at the same fucking smirk i always see. I rolled my eyes and scoffed going back to looking for my size.

"what the fuck do you want Harry?" i heard him chuckle and i glared at him crossing my arms over my chest. He looked down at me and i just wanted to smack him all i could see was that annoying smirk he always had on his face and FYI i was really getting tired of it because in every book i read the boy is always smirking and so when it comes to actually seeing a boy hes smirking too and it just pisses me off.

"well I'm sorry i just wanted to get your attention" i resisted the urge to roll my eyes.

"you didn't have to ram into me so hard to get my attention"

"actually i did i was calling your name but i guess you didn't hear even though the whole store was literally staring at me because i was being so loud" i didn't know what to say i must've been spacing out hard and not knowing it when i was looking through the merchandise. that's the perks of being a depressed teenager. Well I'm not as depressed as i was but i used to be deep down in a dark place that most people that are depressed don't go into. i was suicidal and i started hearing things and i just blocked out everything i literally sat there with all the lights on and all i could see was black it was horrible. so after i got over that stage i have a habit of blocking everything around me out. its a bad thing but sometimes its good.

"sorry" i mumbled grabbing my size and walking away. I don't know what came over me but it was probably because i hate being reminded of how i used to be. I'm still fragile and being in that state scares me to the core because i was so bad i didn't even know a razor was touching my skin once. and now i have scars everywhere to remind me. I paid for my shoes and walked out. Walking right by Harry. I needed to get out of here i could feel myself breaking down. the vile in my throat slowly rising. i cant do this my anxiety is starting to raise and i cant breath correctly. I try to find an exit and once i find it i fast walk towards it. I could faintly hear someone calling my name but barely cause all i could hear is my heart pumping and my blood racing. i swerved around the crowds not touching anyone because any contact will let my tears spill. I didn't want that. I didn't know why this was happening I guess my brain just took over and started panicking that the reminder would let me sink back into the hole. No I'm not going back there and I never will.

As i exit someones hand wraps around my arms stopping me and what i didn't want to happen starts. tears spill out of my eyes and i don't dare look at who has my arm I'm trying to straighten out my breathing but it wont work i need someone to help me but the only person that ever could was my mom and Sadie. i feel myself get turned around and i stare at the ground trying to do the best i can to control it but i feel like I'm going to pass out.

"oh my god Skyla? Whats happening? c'mon breath" it was Harry and him freaking out was not helping me at all. i grabbed his arms and he looked at me panicked and held me up. i could see him searching his mind for what to do until he came across something.

"OK Sky just.... just breath with me" he slowly breathed in through his nose and out through his mouth. i copied his breathing pattern the best i could until my breathing went back to normal. but i knew what was about to happen when i saw black fuzzy dots come to view. And next thing i know i passed out.