Don't Let Go (Sequel to Hold On JackABoy)

Chapter 21- Wade

Marks POV

Its been two days since I gave Jack the letter. I haven't heard anything from Jade about it.
I guess he doesn't want me.
"Ahhh I feel so awful.." I groan aloud to myself in Wade and I's hotel bathroom.

Wade.

I tugged at my red hair clenching my teeth.
"What do I do?" I say lightly letting my body loosen up. He's been there for me ever since I can remember, he was there when I hurt and when I cried, he experienced me at my best and at my worst and he loves me..and I love him.. to say that I don't would be a complete lie. I love him.. but I love Jack.. I know I do because every time I see him my body feels weak and I grow self conscious of my actions. I even went back to watch his videos and just looking at him made me want to throw up, but in a good way..
Wade tends to my hand and foot he's so handsome and the last two years have been amazing.
I can't just leave Wade.. he deserves better than that.."For gods sake we're getting married!!" The tension in my body returns.
"But I don't know if I can live without Jack.. I mean if he wants me anyway..after everything I've done to hurt him."
My phone dings and I look at the drop down

Wade: Hey babe do you want anything while I'm still on this walk? Love you!

I sigh and put my phone back in my pocket..
"I don't know what to do I don't know what to do" I sob as I lightly bang my palms on the sides of my head.
And after about 15 minutes of sobbing confueciously
I come to a conclusion.

Two years. I can't just ruin the best two years of my life over a feeling for a man I knew a long time ago..
I'm going to stay with Wade and that's it!

Jack doesnt want to see me anywa-

My phone buzzes once again repeatedly.
I look at the caller ID.
"Mannnn" I whine.

"Hey Jade, what's up!" I tried to sound as if I wasn't just moping around in my bathroom, trying to convince myself the same as I stand up and exit the bathroom into the hotel room.

I stop in my tracks, listening through her rambles.

"He- he said yes? I- tomorrow? I...uh...ok..I'll meet you tomorrow...ok bye."

I heard the call end and I dropped my phone. Luckily the room was carpeted.

"He..wants me to come...?" I say wide eyed moving two feet to the couch. I feel faint, I sit and hold my stomach. I look around trying to understand what's happening.

"Calm" breathe "down" I said through constricted breathes.

I can't breathe.

I grab at my shirt and pull it down from my neck instantly ruining it's hem. With my other hand I grab the couch for friction.
I feel tears leak from my eyes as a weird sensation arose amongst my body.. I was cold and clammy yet I was over heating.

I hadn't even heard the door open, let alone Wade sitting right next to me. As his hand makes contact with my being I make no hesitation in grabbing it. As I latched on I watched him flinch but immediately go to worried. As I struggled to inhale he made eye contact as he turned my body with me and helped me lay on the couch. I could see he was talking but there were no words.

I gasped watching as he elevated my head with pillows and try to help me drink water.
A cold hotel facecloth was placed on my forehead.

As he leaned in I grabbed him by his shirt and pulled it down which resulted in lifting me or lowering him. I used the last of my energy to try and communicate.

"I.... I t-h-nk" I tried.

"Mark it's ok-" I pulled harder so he would understand.

"P-a-a-a-ni-ic....." I tried to breathe again
"A-t-ak" I finished trying to sigh but since I wasn't getting proper oxygen the world got hazy and the corners of my visions became black, the back crept around my eyes until I felt myself let go of the fabric on Wades shirt.

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Sorry it took so long good news I passed all my Exams bad news is my lowest grade was a 79 :(((( -X