Persona

Fire and Ice

Chat Noir

I couldn't explain in words how I felt.

Just close your eyes and think about everything you've ever wanted.

Think about how it makes you feel when you have it, but how you feel when you're without it.

You're more than just happy or more than just sad.

You're in love with that moment, and you feel like dying in the next.

But I was there, staring at what I had always wanted.

Her bluebell eyes, her nervous laugh, her perfect smile, every little freckle on her face, and her.

In that moment, she was more beautiful then I had ever seen or dreamed her as.

I was lost for words, and my body wouldn't move.

I just wanted to run to her and hold her in my arms, for I knew in that moment that she was the girl I truly loved.

I knew what I wanted to say to her...but my mouth wouldn't make the words.

Finally, "Are you okay Chat?"

I blinked rapidly, seeing as it had been a long time since I had said anything.

She looked so nervous and afraid...which made my eyes cloud with tears.

I wanted to speak to her.

I wanted to tell her I had always loved her.

But I knew...that no matter what I did or said then...

she would never love me too.

So I just stared at her, my tears spilling over, and I fell to my knees.

"Chat?"

She sank down to my level, and I saw that she too had tears in her eyes.

She smiled at me, and mouthed the words, "It's okay."

I closed my eyes and took a deep, long breath.

"A few years ago... my mother taught me something that I'll never forget," I begun, my words barely a whisper, "she would read to me before bed, and sometimes I'd be afraid. But when I was, I always remember what she me, 'Never be afraid...for fear is only temporary.'"

I stopped for a moment, and knew what I had to say.

"And I learned a poem that she used to tell me before she'd tuck me in, but I never understood it. 'Some say the world will end in fire. Some say in ice. From what I've tasted of desire, I hold with those who favor fire. But if it had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate to say that for destruction of ice, is also great...and would suffice'."

I wiped away a tear before going on.

"And now that I'm here, with you, I think I finally understand what she meant...I think it means, in this scenario, that no matter what...the earth would still end, whether it be fire or ice. And for me, I have always loved you, if you're Marinette or Ladybug, I will still be in love with you all the same. So what I'm trying to get at..is I love you Marinette. I've always known it and I've always felt it. I just can't stand not being with you. You're everything I want and more, so je t'amie Marinette...and I hope you know that I always will."