figured out

falling apart

Today i was sitting in the hospital right next to Josh bed wishing he'd wake up
"Maya"
I look up to see riley
M:hey
R:hey how you holding up
M:im not
R:you wanna go to the cafeteria and talk
M:sure
I turn to Josh bed and whispers "I'll be back"
I get up and walk out with riley and we head downstairs we grab something to eat and sit down
R:so when you gonna go home
M:im not not until he wakes up
R:maya that could be forever
M:I don't care i love him riley if this was lucas would you stay
R:yeah ok I'm sorry
M:it's OK
Then riley just starts smiling
M:what
R:remember when you met Josh after years at the family Christmas dinner
M:yeah that was a good day haha
R:then when Josh got his nyu letter
M:haha I jumped on him like there was no tomorrow
R:then you made me sneak out to a college party so those girls wouldn't steal him from you
M:I know and he didn't even get with them haha
R:that's cause from the beginning it was always you and always will be in think when he gets out of the coma he's not gonna think twice he's gonna be with you because he may have loved liv but when he saw you when you showed up after getting back into bet anything his heart raced
When riley said that I smiled then it faded
M:then why did he push me away
R:because he didn't want to hurt liv but when he found out he didn't care anymore he loved you but he was hurt that's why he couldn't be with you He didn't want you to be the rebound girl
M:true
R:then there was the time he said I like you
M:I was really screaming on the inside but I really liked him now i love him wow funny how things change and feelings
R:right well I got to go
M:ok I'm gonna head to the room see you later
R:ok
After riley left I went back to the room I walked in and sat down that's when tears came out I cried
M: please don't leave me
Memories coming back in my brain at once after saying that

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