Love Never Ends [Watty Awards 2012]

Chapter 2: Acquaintances

Chapter 2: Acquaintances

We continue to attend our Sunday worship in the church and we still had fun and continue  to grow in Spirit 

After a few Sundays I still don't know who he was,

I always tend to look at him from afar

How he smiles

How he speaks

How he walks

How he acts

I  cannot say I am stalking him or what

It's just that, I just tend to see him also

Wondering whether there’ll be a chance to know him

I don’t want people to notice that I’m interested at him.

He was just keeping a low profile yet people knew him,

 I never tried asking who he was; all I can do is just take a glimpse of his face and his smile.

With his smile his eyes tend to smile at the same time. It was very natural to him.

How he praise the Lord and how he seriously prays. How he worships God

A Sunday came when he brought a friend all the way from the other city and there, the pastor mentioned that a blind person was inviting a sighted one to attend a church. I also found out what his name was, Blake.

Blake

He was being extraordinary for God 

I found out that he was one of the special ministries (just a little information: there are blind people in the church and had such great gifts and such faith and loves God so much.)

It strike me that he was actually a partially blind person who just got blind few years ago. after I found out who he was, I didn't mind, I know that it was just an attraction in my heart that's why I told my heart to shut up.

I had a boyfriend that time in secret since my parents are totally against him.

He is 5 years older than me and acts actually like 5 years younger than me. since I came from a good well known family, I was very much guarded in everything I do, making it a hard time to see my boyfriend to take a lot of lies and excuses just to meet up for a while then just go home as if nothing actually  happened. He had no work and just loves to play computer while I do some work in our family business and do tutorial and church at the same time. I was making much money able to buy almost anything I want to buy but end up spending most of my money for my boyfriend.

Let’s face it, I’m a typical girl who just loves to give everything for the one I thought I love and loves me back. I gave him everything even if it is against my principles. It took some time to realize that it was I who was actually looking out in our relationship. After realizing that my boyfriend was actually worthless in relationship and really lazy and timid I broke up with him. 

Since I was busy at church I don't mind Mr. Cute-faced Blake there I just focused myself to God. We knew each other but not really talking at each other. It took some months and he continues to attend and loves the church. My heart was able to shut off the feelings toward him, whenever he says and smiles at me "Hi Joy!"

It took some months and we continue to attend church and the church continues to grow and still just look a glimpse of him.

I didn't mind that much of him since I was having so much fun in church I forgot about the first time I met him. It was much of a great time getting busy and hasn’t really talked to him and only ignores each other. I prefer myself in a low profile. Besides I was still dating my boyfriend that time. He always calls for my name and smiles at me, how Blake calls me most of the time and replying back another "Hi Blake" sometimes even "Hi Miss Vista" (my last name) and replies him back "Hi Mr Richardson" and smiles back at him. I know that he doesn’t really see the full face of me but just a glimpse but I know he still sees me.

I don't know what was his past and what caused his blindness that time, after all I kept myself quiet to the simple attraction and I just let ourselves be  acquaintance that time, I just told my heart, keep quiet, you're way too busy to think about it,

It was enough for me just to take a glimpse of him; of what to say and how to control my heart. Since that time I was still dating my boyfriend.

Acquaintance? Friends? I guess that’s enough. No more, no less

Though I remember myself saying beforehand, I know when I saw my Mr. Right, I can feel it in myself on the very first time I see him, and again I remember the time I saw him.

But all I just react are all in denial since maybe it's just an emotion or an attraction, I should control myself first, I came to attend church and have fun in the church and grow myself spiritual to God. Blake is not the reason but I chose to be strong in God's word and God's love.

So heart, better be quiet, emotions, be still, Joy, focus yourself to God, Blake is just a friend, an acquaintance, let him grow in God's love.