Love Never Ends [Watty Awards 2012]

chapter 9: we need to talk

chapter 9: we need to  talk

i replied to his message and we were just texting the whole time even at work. he tries to call me but i ignore his calls since my phone that time was still in bad condition regarding the calls.

he kept on asking me how i was doing and that i should not wear myself out, he was giving such concern.

and when i won't reply he will just say "i am sorry if i disturb you, just take care of yourself"

me and Blake had broken the ice and started to send text messages though i was still a little in a part of ignoring him since Johnny was around always

Johnny, my boyfriend, saw this and he was furious  about it. i apologized and told him that it's just a friend and that he should not worry about it.

he was angry at me until evening he was almost about to hurt me, i snobbed him and that i was about to cry. he threw up his phone and i was really scared that i went home as soon as i can.

by  the time i arrived home, he was already pursuing me to forgive him and that he wants to meet me up, i told him it's late and i can't leave my brothers. the only reply i got was that "Sorry for you that you won't meet me up" then afterwards he sent another text message "where are you? would you like to meet me up, see you again tonight" i was troubled and having a hard time to fall asleep.

the next day i went out early to meet him up and i borrowed his phone and i saw a text message from a girl named Rose "hey there baby! would you want to meet me up again until next time? i hope to see you soon!" he told me that it was not for him, until i saw another message,

"Johnny, baby i miss you so much!"

that was enough for me, i ran away and was in tears seeing those text messages. it was too much for me, this wasn't the first time he did it, he even lied to me telling that he has no more communication to his last girlfriend but the truth was that he had communications and that  they haven't had their break up.

it was too much...

most of the time i was already in tears with him

i decided in Malaysia i am about to end this.

he has drawn the line i had to talk to him already.

i was waiting for 3 signs after i arrive from Malaysia

1. for my parents to know about us in a short time if not, break up

2. for me no more tears again in my  eyes, if i cried again, end it

3. for him to leave the company, surely i will end it

i did not choose to end it because of Blake but i chose to end it because it's about time, my eyes are always sore every night from tears because of Johnny. Blake is just a friend

one day my  friend Jessica messaged me that Johnny is about to resign to his work. 

it was the final sign i was waiting for.

that day me and Johnny had the talk already he was staying in the place where  the workers are staying in and i went  there inside to talk to him.

"Johnny we need to talk" i stared seriously at his eyes

he was not looking straight at me and was ignoring me the whole time. i asked him a lot of questions but all i get was vague answers. i try to do it in the nicest way i can to end it in a good way.

"Johnny, remember what we talked about before when i was in Malaysia if nothing happens in our deal then might as well end this"

he was staring blankly and stood up

he punched the door until it was about to either his hand to be broken or the door to be broken

we were talking for about 30 minutes until Jessica was looking for me so i told him i have to go

when i was about to go, he grabbed my hand and pulled me into him, he hugged me so tight and told me "please don't leave me"

i was about to pour down my tears but i have to be firm to my words that this would be better for me than getting 

hurt always. i had to end it

"i am sorry Johnny it's for the good of all"

i removed his arms and went out.

by evening he kept on sending me messages if it was all real and final

he kept on calling me but i did not answer it anymore, i had to let go and ignore him until he will be alright

i know that what i did was right, i felt thorns being removed in my heart by the moment i told him it was all over that was all enough, i'll just have the  process to the things i need to finish regarding Johnny.

but it seems like he just won't stop

he kept on sending me messages and reaching up to 30 calls in 30 minutes. until he stopped

and sent a message

"if you are sure to end this up like this, be prepared on what is going to happen and i will tell everyone, everything about you!!"

it was a threat he knew i won't resist, i was deeply worried about that message and what it means. 

i wonder what might happen

what should i do about it.