Stay, markson AU (complete)

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Yugyeom

"You gotta keep your eyes on the road Yugyeom" Mark said, he was teaching me how to drive today.

"You never know if you take your eyes off the road what will happen" he smiled at me, buckling his seatbelt.

"Okay start" I began my journey on the road, my pace not so fast as I was scared, all of a sudden I began to speed up my foot feeling heavy on the accelerator.

"Slow down 'gyeomie" Mark pleaded, his words laced with fear, "please"

"I-I I can't Mark something is stopping me" I screamed, my foot not coming off of the pedal once.

"YUGYEOM STOP" he screamed I looked ahead to see a car heading our way, I began to swerve the car going out of control.

"Mark!" I screamed once I felt the impact, everything going black.

"Mark!" I kept screaming, waking up covered in sweat, once a memory turned nightmare had been haunting me for a few weeks now. Guilt had been eating at me also.

"Yugyeom?" I heard Jinyoung call out coming into the bedroom, I've had trouble sleeping more recently so naps had become a regular thing.

"Are you okay? You've been calling for Mark for about 5 minutes now, what happened?" he asked in a concerning tone.

"It was just a dream" I began repeating like a mantra.

"You really need to stop blaming yourself" he said hand coming up to my forehead to wipe away the hairs that had stuck there from sweat.

"I know, it's just- I shouldn't have drunk anything, I shouldn't have been driving that night, I shouldn't have gone to your party" I spilled out, the words never stopping.

"You're overreacting 'gyeomie" he said pulling me into a comforting hug in which I pushed away from.

"No I'm not Jinyoung- I shouldn't have- I didn't have to drive that night, I- I should've just stayed home" I cried, "I hate myself so much, I hate myself for drinking, I hate bambam for distracting me, I hate you for inviting me out!" I screamed the last part. The guilt had become too much, stressing me out.

"Oh" was all Jinyoung could reply with.

After realizing what I had just said I quickly opened my mouth to apologize, "save it" he spat getting up.

"You've just been using me since the whole accident, I thought you wanted to be with me- but I.. I guess not" he cried in frustration leaving me all alone with my thoughts in this empty room.

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AN: lots of drama to come in the next few chapters.