Stay, markson AU (complete)

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"You're just using me"

"Save it!"

"I don't even know why I bothered with you in the first place."

"I can't believe you, all of this is your fault! Just kill yourself already"

"You're a failure, I can't believe you tried and didn't succeed. Try again and please don't come back alive, nobody wants you here"

beep beep beep beep

The loud sounds from my heart monitor racing woke me from my nightmare, the doctors rushing in, Bambam by my side freaking out. That voice in my dream was all too familiar but I couldn't place my finger on it, on who would say such things, although most of them sounded like they never happened most of that sounded real. But I never got to see who was saying those sorts of words to me.

"'Gyeomie are you alright?" Bambam asked frantically, it wasn't his voice. It couldn't have been, it was much deeper than his.

"It was a dream, I'm fine- it was only a dream" I reassured the older boy, the doctors leaving once they knew I was fine. I had been in the hospital for a little under a week now due to certain circumstances and Bambam had been with me the whole time. Which I thank him for, I don't know how I'd go if I were left by myself the whole time. If I would've still been alive if Bambam hadn't been here.

"Well if it happens again I'll be here, you know that- I'll always be here for you Yugyeom" he said placing his hand atop mine and smiling down at me due to our positions.

"Thanks Bambi" I smiled back up at him wanting to hug him, I would have if I weren't in the hospital bed. I'm not sure why I ever left him, he is the best thing that ever happened to me and I let him go.

"You know it's true 'Gyeomie, I'll always love you- even if you don't return the feelings you'll always have my heart" he squeezed my hand a faultered smile now on his lips, he must of been feeling as though I didn't love him anymore.

"I never stopped Bambi," I paused, a confused look on his face, "I never stopped loving you, and I never ever will."

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AN ; NEVER EVER