❤Gwen's Bio❤

t h i r t y o n e

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Like a kite my mind is soaring high.
Through the sky every day and night.
And way up high I can still see just fine,
Don't worry everything will be alright.
I know it's scary, but everything will be alright
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If you know that song, I love you.

This chapter has mentions of self harm. Please please please please don't read this if you are triggered by this. I don't want any of you hurting your beautiful bodies because of me.
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Okay so I live with my aunt and uncle right

And yesterday I was being really quiet and staying in my room alone cos you know I'm a hermit

And my uncle called me out and he was like

Gwen are you hurting yourself again

And I told him I didn't wanna talk about it

And he kept telling me how if I keep doing this I might really hurt yourself one day

And he told me how my aunt was telling him that she's scared that if I keep cutting and she comes home one day to find me bleeding out and on the floor dying

And to be completely honest it  made me cry

(Yes, the spawn of Satan cried, get over it.)

Because I've been self-harming since I was twelve and I never realized how much it affected the ones around me

Like, my friend Karolina found out BC we were messing around and she grabbed my wrist and I winced because I had two fresh cuts and she was like

"Gwen"

And I was like
"I'm fine"

And she was like
"No, you're not"

And she like tackled me to the floor and pulled my sweater sleeve up

And she made me a list of coping skills and alternatives to self-harm.

And I was surprisingly happy despite the situation

Because for one in my life, I felt like someone actually cared.

No matter how alone you feel,

Someone out there cares.