❤Gwen's Bio❤

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TRIGGER WARNING. MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SELF-HARM AND EATING DISORDERS

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"Roll up your sleeves
Let out your fears
And let your scars
Be a lesson."

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Do you really think you're the only one who feels the way you do?

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I hate myself.

And don't just think that I'm just some girl with daddy issues
Who wants everyone to feel bad for her.

I'm not that person.

I hate telling people my life story. I hate telling people what I've been through. Because trust me, I've seen some shit.

I hate it when I tell people that my mom passed away because of drug abuse

I hate it when they pity me

And you'd think that I'd be smart enough to not do drugs after what happened to my mom

But I'm not.

I'm just like every other person in my family
I'm going to fuck up one way or another

I'm not special

I'm not important

How could someone love me if I hate my fucking guts?

How could someone love a fucking mess like me?

I haven't eaten in two days

I threw up yesterday

I get migraines every two hours

I want to die so badly

And I know that it'd be so easy to take my life

But I haven't yet

And I don't know why

I'm just so naïve sometimes

I let myself believe that I'm this person who can do anything and fix myself

I let myself believe that I was okay

I let myself believe that I was happy

What am I even doing with my life?

I'm graduating in four years and I have absolutely no plan whatsoever

I'm sitting here whining like a little bitch

I'm sitting here tearing myself apart for the sake of who?

What am I even doing here?

No wonder she left me

I'm a fucking mess

I can see my ribcage without sucking my stomach in

I haven't eaten a proper meal since god knows when

I'm killing my brain cells with every puff I take

I'm scarring my skin leaving ugly marks on my once perfectly fine body

I can't even remember what my body used to look like

Who is this monster wearing my skin?

What have I done to my body?

What have I done to my mind?

All I wanted was to be beautiful and happy

Now look at me.