*trigger warning*
So
All my lovely people's
I'm falling back into the rabbit hole again.
I smoked weed for the first time in a long time
I scratched at my neck until it turned bright red.
Anthony and I both had a breakdown at the exact same time. My current boyfriend wasn't answering me, and I freaked out. For the first time in forever, I actually freaked out. I was afraid of him leaving me, abandoning me, replacing me, finding someone better, new.
I don't know why, but sometimes these random ass thoughts just pop up. I feel numb, yet I feel empty and sad. I don't know. Maybe I need my meds changed. I really don't know. I'm gonna talk to my counselor about it when I see her next. I think it's probably what's best for me.
Anyways, Anthony and I talked for a bit, then we hung out in his room playing Minecraft. He's a really nice guy; I feel bad that people treat him like shit. He really doesn't deserve it.
I told my boyfriend, Jayden, that I was going to take a mental health break. Three days, I said. And if I didn't talk to him in exactly three days, I told him to call Anthony.
So, I'm taking a break. I believe that it's what is best. I'll be back lovelies, be safe.
Love,
Drew❤
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De TodoJust a bunch of stuff about my awful personality ❤ Trigger warning: This journal thing has mentions of self harm, suicide, eating disorder (s), death, and drug and alcohol abuse. Please don't read this if you are triggered by any of this. I don't w...
