Just a bunch of stuff about my awful personality ❤
Trigger warning: This journal thing has mentions of self harm, suicide, eating disorder (s), death, and drug and alcohol abuse.
Please don't read this if you are triggered by any of this. I don't w...
I know I shouldn't care what people think about me, but I do.
Every insult disguised like a joke
Every dirty look
Every rumor
It hurts like a motherfucker.
I know I try to act like I'm this rebel and I don't give a fuck about anyone or anything, but I care too much.
I'm constantly stressing about my grades every single day, hoping to "God" that I don't fail the eighth grade.
I'm constantly stressing about my weight, hoping to "God" that I don't gain any more weight.
I'm hoping to "God" that my acquaintances and classmates don't see through my lies.
I'm hoping to "God" everyone doesn't see that I'm not okay sometimes.
Anyways, back to the guy friend thing. I only have a few guy friends
And most of them have shitty music taste
But there's this guy who's in the grade below me who is legit goals
He has the emo flippy hair and he wears skinny jeans, band tees and Vans.
And I'm just over here like
YASS QUEEN SLAY BITCH
"I know I'm gay but pls marry me"
Have you ever had a gigantic platonic crush on someone??
Just me???
Yeah I thought so
^Cause in our generation its fucking creepy to go up to someone and say "hey do you wanna be friends"
I mean, I don't think that obvi, (I would literally die if someone said that to me! Like oh my god yes am I your senpai??!?!) but most ppl think its weird. And I don't wanna be /that/ person. ^
Yeah I have the subtlety of a blind chicken on ice skates.
And like obviously I was exaggerating back there but he's Kewl bro bro
Like hmu my guy👌👌👌👌👌👌👌👌👌
Because I am sooooo awkward and my middle name is anxiety
So I can't even bring myself to talk to him
But I'm best friends with his best friend and he talks about me so I'm like over here like YAAASSS QUEEN
And I'm dating his ex girlfriend so
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