Till Life Do Us Part (A Zauren Love Story)

Part Seven: One Way Ticket

"your mother's world darkened, she was so shocked and couldn't believe what happened. she couldn't stay a day without your father, and now she won't see him ever again. everything happened in the blink of an eye and she didn't know what to do; Harry was still so young. your father wasn't a rich man, after they got married he rented a small apartment, but after his death your mother couldn't pay the rent so the owner kicked her out, she came here and lived with me. 3 months after your father's death, your mother knew that she was pregnant... with you"..

Jacklin stopped for a second, and wiped her tears. she wasn't sure if I wanted to hear the rest of the story, but I held her hand and told her to continue.

"your mother was shocked, she didn't know anything, she was pregnant for almost 5 months and didn't have a clue. but who can blame her, she was so sad and depressed to feel anything. when the doctor told her about you she felt scared, she wanted to make an operation but all the doctors refused because the baby was fully grown inside her..."

I didn't know what to feel anymore, I couldn't believe what I was hearing, my mother wanted to kill me? she didn't want me? but why? even if she hadn't money or home or anything, I'm still her daughter, how could she?

"but why? why she gave up on me? even though she hadn't money, that's not a reason to give up on your unborn baby!" I tried not to cry but it was so hard to hold all this emotions inside of me.

"Actually there was another reason; she got a job offer in England, a very good job offer." Jacklin answered without looking into my eyes, she knew that it was so hard for me to hear what she was saying. this is terrible, a mother giving up on her child because of a money and a job offer.

"but why she didn't give up on Harry too?" my voice was so low that Jacklin barely heard it.

"well, she couldn't; Harry was grown then, he was already very sad because of your father's death and she couldn't just leave him behind her." Jacklin tried to explain but this was ridicules. I laughed sarcastically, she couldn't leave her son but she could leave me? was he better than me? why she had choosen him over me?

"And after you heard all of that, are you sure you want to meet your mother?" Jacklin asked me the hardest question, am I ready to meet my mother after all what she did? I have to choose between Jack and Anne, both of them didn't want me, both of them hurt me, but there is someone who didn't; someone who didn't know that I'm even exist.. Harry.

"I want to meet Harry, I want to meet my brother." I answered, even thought I wasn't sure of my answer. Do I really want to do that? well, maybe my brother is not like them, maybe he's different.

And maybe he's worse than them, maybe he doesn't want me too. but anyway, I have to take that risk,  if I stayed here I might lose my life, so I'll choose being unwanted to be dead.

"are you sure?" Jacklin wanted to make sure that I will not regret this decision later.

"pretty sure" I answered more confidently than before

"well, you have to travel to London then, because your brother lives there."

"I will, I will." I mumbled in a low voice, yes, I'll travel to England, but when and How? I don't have a clue, all I know is that I'm going to England to meet my brother..

"I'll give you the address then, but you'll be surprised when you meet him" Jacklin said and I felt afraid for a second.. "why?" I asked nervously

"you'll find out later." she smiled and got up to bring me the address. what she was talking about? and why I'll be surprised? I don't know anything, all I know is he's my brother and I'm his sister, this journey is so dangerous..I'm going to the unknown..