Till Life Do Us Part (A Zauren Love Story)

Part Nineteen: An Unexpected Visitor

Lauren's POV:

I ran to my room and closed the door behind me, I pressed my back on it and slipped down to the cold floor crying and covering my face with my hands. What was I thinking? I don't want anyone to know about my past and here I am crying on his shoulder and then telling him it was nothing. God I'm so stupid. But I couldn't help it, I was about to explode, every cell in my body screamed in pain. I wanted to cry, I needed it, I needed to cry and  to be hugged, I needed someone to comfort me, I needed someone to cry over his shoulder. Camila isn't here anymore to do this, she's not here to stroke my hair and tell me that everything is going to be alright. 

She wasn't here, but Zayn was. He is here and he hugged me and let me cry over his shoulder. His hug wasn't like Camila's one, his hug was even warmer than hers. He made me feel safe, I felt like no one can hurt me or touch me when I'm between his arms. I wanted the hug to last froever, I wanted to stay there with him. But I had to go, I had to run away because I don't want him to know the truth about my past.

I wish he didn't ask me, I wish he didn't talk at all. His hug was more than enough for me, why did he talk to me? I know that he's just trying to help, but I don't want to be helped, I just want to move on and forget about everything I've suffered from in the past. I know he wants to know, I know that he cares and he wants to listen to my story, but I'm so ashamed of my past to let him know it, so ashamed to let him go through it, so ashamed to let him know how humiliated I've been, so ashamed to let him see my scars, so ashamed to let him know my fears. I'm so ashamed of my old life, I don't want him to know anything about it.

I cried so hard until I fell asleep, I woke up the next morning with a pain in my back, not only my back, my whole body was hurting and I have a terrible headache, I looked around me then realized something, I didn't have a nightmare I woke up normally, my body wasn't covered with sweat and my heart wasn't racing, Jack didn't come to my dreams and I didn't see blood! I got up and looked at the mirror, I was looking awful but I didn't care, even thought my eyes were puffy and my hair was totally a mess but I didn't care, I didn't have a nightmare and that was more than enough to let me feel happy.. I smiled to my reflection then headed to the bathroom to take a shower.

Zayn's POV: 

I didn't sleep, I stayed awake thinking about Lauren and how hurt she was, this girl is so deep,  Last night I passed next to her door and heard her crying again, that made it even harder on me, it hurt so much to hear her in pain and being not able to do something to let her feel better is even worse, I wish she tells me, I feel a weird connection to this girl,it hurts me to see her crying and it hurts me more not to know what's the reason of all that.

I smoked the last drag of my cigarette then threw it away, I walked down to the house and sat on the kitchen table, that's when Lauren walked into the kitchen, her eyes were puffy from yesterday but she was smiling

"good morning" she said as she started making her coffee

"good morning,did you sleep well?" I asked and she nodded "yes..yes I did, I slept very well and fine" she smiled and I raised an eyebrow, "listen Lauren, about yesterday.." she cut me off "let's pretend yesterday never happened, can we?" she turned her face and looked at me straight in the eyes, I couldn't help but stare at those perfect green eyes, how strong is she, she's so strong to hide all this weakness inside and pretend it's nothing, how could she, few hours ago she couldn't stop crying, and now she's smiling and acting like it's nothing! "can we Zayn?" she asked me again snapping me out of thoughts, "sure..but.." I looked at her confused but I was cutten off by Louis "good morning guys.." he said as he walked to the kitchen, 

"good morning..your breakfast will be ready in 10 minutes" Lauren smiled at him and that got me more confused, what's going on with her? she seems,, Happy! don't get me wrong but that was weird, I means it's not weird that she's smiling, she's always smiling but today.. there were a true happiness behind her smile..