Lauren's POV:
The last month was amazing, I become closer to the guys, specially to Zayn, we're so close and he tells me everything about him, he also tells me about Perrie which for some reason makes me feel a hitch in my heart. but I love the fact that he trust me, I wish I can do the same, but it's not only about trusting him, it's about sharing my fears with him, about reopening my wounds, it's about the past, the past that I ran away from, the past that I threw behind my back, the past that I can't forget, no matter how hard I tried..
it's so hard to keep all of that inside me, it's eating me up and driving me insane. forcing a smile over your tears takes a lot of effort, but I become an expert on this, the only one who makes me look like a beginner at this is Zayn. yeah, this boy has the ability to read the truth behind your lies, and it's making me feel guilty, guilty for knowing that he shares all of his secrets with me while I'm lying about everything. but he knows that, he knows.. his looks and glares at me say everything, but he can't stop being so kind to me, that boy is more than amazing..
locking all of this inside me is not easy, it's not easy at all. yes, I'm so happy, but there is something inside me that still hurts, there's something that keeps reminding me of my suffering, and it controls me, it controls my emotions, it controls every thing in me, my laughs, my smiles, my talk, my movements, my nights.. it's stopping me from living the life of my dreams, the life where I can be happy and safe, the life where I can't hear or see Jack, the life where there is no scars and fears, the life where is only love.. nothing but love..
but no matter how hard I'm trying to live this life, to forget, to push away those fears, I came up with nothing, this feeling of being unsafe and humiliated will always be there, trapping my happiness, it's like life is daring me to forget it, and who can dares the life!
This morning was just like the other ones, when I wake up from a nightmare with sweat covering me, my heart racing rapidly and My breathing is labored. I put my face in my hands and try to calm down before getting up and walking to my bathroom to take a shower.
after finishing my shower and wearing my clothes and applying some light make up I went downstairs, nobody is awake yet so I headed to the kitchen and took my time making the breakfast, I was preparing the table when my mobile vibrated on it, I checked the caller ID and a huge smile apperead on my face, it was Camila..
"Caaaam vas happenin'?" I asked in excitement quoting Zayn's famous phrase
"Hey lolo.. h-how are you?" her voice was shaking and I knew that there's something wrong
"fine.. what's wrong Camila?" my smile dropped and I put the plates that I was holding down on the table
"umm...Lauren, there is something.. I don't know how I'm gonna tell you this but you have to know it.." she stopped and sighed loudly through the phone making me feel nervous
"Camila what is it? you're scaring me.."
"it's about..um...J-Jack... he came to the club today and asked me about you..." my breath hitched in my throat and my whole body started shaking after hearing Jack's name
"w-what? but... but how?" I tried to make a full sentences but it was so hard as I was trying to focus on my breathing patterns
"I don't know.. oh my god.. I don't fucking know.. he just showed up and asked about you.."
"did you tell him anything? did he know that I'm in London? did he know about Harry" I put my hand on my forehead and took a deep breath, The pulse of my heart pounding in my ears
"No.. no I didn't tell him anything don't worry.. I'm so sorry Lauren I don't know how he knew that I'm your friend, everything happened in blink of an eye and I..." I cut her off after my shaky breaths were calmed down
"Camz, it's not your fault, I should've known that he'll ask about me, I'm so sorry.." tears started filling my eyes "but please if he came again don't tell him anything, please I'm begging you, if he knows where I am he'll come here and find me, I don't want to cause problems, please do it for me.." I pleaded
"are you kidding me Lauren? of course I won't tell him anything, I just wanted you to know. don't worry sweetie I got your back, I always did, and I'll always will. so just forget it and be happy ok? don't think about him. he'll never find you again, I'll make sure of that I promise" Camila said and I smiled, she didn't change at all, she still that protective girl I've always known her, "thank you Mila, I love you more than words can say.. god, how much I miss you" my voice broke and I couldn't control the tears that started falling from my eyes
"ooooh don't cry please you'll make me cry too, I miss you much more, but don't think about me, it's time to think about yourself, no more tears and no more fears, now go before David comes and kick my ass" she said making me giggle through my tears
"yeah me too, I have to go before the boys wake up and hears everything, talk to you later, love you.."
"love you more..be happy.." and with that she hang up, I placed my mobile over the table and whipped my tears with my long sleeve..
"what was that?" My breath caught as I heard Harry's voice behind me, I jumped slightly of fear and turned my face, Harry and the boys were standing on the kitchen door staring at me, Harry's eyes full of anger
"Harry..." I almost whispered
"what is that thing that you don't want us to hear?" he said again and my eyes widened
"h-how much did you hear?" I asked nervously afraid of the answer
"Everything..." he frowned and I closed my eyes and sighed deeply, controlling my breaths wasn't even possible anymore..
A/N: Hope you like it.. sorry for all the mistakes, as you know English is nit my native language (I've said that more than 100 time :P)
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