Greatest Lullaby (Nat & Alex Wolff Fan Fiction)

Chapter Twenty-Three

~NAT'S P.O.V~

It was time to go back to school. It's not really the whole 'back to school' thing that bugs me, but Diana. She's great and all, but she isn't cut out for me. What I mean is that she is just a great FAN. She said so herself. Simply being that won't do me any good. She doesn't love me, she doesn't know me, she doesn't care if I am good or not, she probably made all that crying drama to just get my attention. To her I am some musician. A person that truly knows me will always be with me. Like Samantha. I know I have been real bad to her, but she was the one trying to open my eyes, from someone that didn't love me for me.

It's Monday and everybody 'loves' Mondays. The best part is that it's back to school from winter break. On top of that I am going to have to face Diana. I really just want to drop it. I still love her deeply, but she doesn't. For now the best is for me to get together with Samantha.

Mom wanted to take us to school. We said good bye and sat in the cafeteria like always. It seemed like forever until people actually started getting to school. I wanted to get this over with and ask Samantha out.

Time passed and I didn't see Samantha or Diana. I have a class with Samantha, but also with Diana. This is going to be a very interesting day.

I went to my first class and all, boring. Then I had my music class. Today we had a sub, so we just had to write a few lyrics. When I am emotional words just come to me so naturally, but the time isn't enough, so I just get like half of it. This song was special. For someone that lied to me; Diana.

Caught like a fly

In a web of your lies

Its truth be told now

Or it's met your demise

So how did it feel

When you held the knife

That you stuck right in my back

A thousand times?

Your grandfather would probably roll in his grave

If he knew of the person that you have became

Oh, we'll just lay out and take this

Not again, not again

Oh, you have left my heart

Black and blue

Oh, just like your father

Did to you

How does it feel

Knowing you're buried alive?

The bell rang. It made me wake up from my world. I didn't really realize that I had tears coming out of my eyes. Although it was more like an anger song, it made me cry.

I just dozed through the rest of day.

For lunch I went to the farthest corner of the library. Samantha was there. This was my chance, to get things in order, I think.

"Hi Sam." I said as I sat next to her.

"Hey kid." She said with a smile.

"Sorry that I didn't talk to you during class. I was kinda in my zone."

"It's ok, I could tell that's why I didn't talk to you either."

"I wanted to ask you something." I said while looking into her eyes.

"Yeah."

"Look, I am sorry for treating you so badly. I just think I was protecting Diana."

"Thanks. It did hurt actually, and that slap the other time."

I kneeled to her. "I am so sorry. It was just instinct. Then I realized she wanted me for the fame, that she doesn't really know me, but you do."

"You see, she is a little nobody. She doesn't care about you. She is simply looking the best for herself. But I don't care, I have known you forever, and we have been close."

"Yes; and that is why I want to ask you... Do you want to be my... Girlfriend." I said it. But it didn't feel special like the time I told Diana.

"Yes! But with one condition. You have to cut all connection with that little butthole."

It bugged me that she called Diana that, but she lied to me. "Ok."

"Good. See you in Science." She said as she gave me a kiss and left.

I didn't feel so sure about what I did, but it was the best for me. Lunch ended and there was one more period until last, science. I was one of the first to get there. What I didn't remember is that I sit right next to Diana. Could this go any worse?

After a minute or two she entered. She sat down and started getting her stuff out. It was the most uncomfortable situation of all time. The silence was killer.

"Nat we need to talk." She said without looking at me.

"What?"

"A lot of stuff has happened. I don't know why, but I think that-"

"Um... What are you doing talking to my boyfriend?" Samantha came and asked in a sassy voice. That questioned stung my heart. I felt between the sword and wall.

"Calm down, I was just making it official that it is over, but it seems that he got ahead of time. Excuse me." That was it. Diana made it official. We would never be together. She got up and asked the teacher if she could go to the bathroom.

"Jeez. What an attention seeker." Samantha said as she came and sat on my lap.

"Yeah."

"Come on babe. You don't like her still right?"

"No, not at all." I was lying to myself.

"Good, because I want that brat away from your life." She said as she kissed me. That kiss was dull. She was a good kisser but it was dull.

Diana came back and we started class. I could tell that she was crying, even if she had put make up on. I really wanted to hug her again, but she was just seeking attention, I think. So many things are running through my head. She lied, and it is best for us to leave my life, like Samantha said. I just wonder if what I am doing is right.

When school ended Diana left off running again. Samantha said that she was going to stay. So I went home walking alone. I feel so alone, again. Even if I have a girlfriend, I don't feel it.

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Hey guys! Just for the lyrics of the song that Nat was writing, they are lyrics from the song Caught Like A Fly from Falling In Reverse from their album The Drug In Me Is You.

You guys so totally check them out, they are great and I love them. I thought that the words fit perfect to what Nat is feeling. Also to tell you guys that this book is reaching it's end. I will be writing a sequel in a little while, but now I have another idea for another fan fiction that I will tell you later. Anyway thanks for reading my lovely unicorns!!