A Million Ways To Love You™(Never Let Go)♥ Book 3✔️

♥ Chapter 19 ♥

*Michael's Point Of View *

My head is spinning right now. It feels like someone knocked me in the head really hard. I groan leaning up in the bed. I feel for Marilyn but her side is empty. I sigh and sat there for awhile before finally forcing myself up. I walk slowly into the bathroom rubbing my head.  I needed a pain reliever and fast. I look through the cabinets till I came across a bottle of advil. I take two holding them on my tongue while I fixed a cup of water. I quickly gulp them down and continued with my regular morning routine. I slowly walk downstairs. Still no sign of Marilyn or the kid's. I walk into the kitchen going through the fridge. I take out the orange juice pouring myself a glass. I soon hear the front door open and close. I continue drinking hearing footsteps coming closer. Marilyn finally walks in. She jumps holding her chest. "I didn't know you were up", I just woke up not too long ago, "oh OK", She walks past me to the pantry taking out a box of cereal. I watch her as she fixes it. "what?", you called me by my name, She looks at me confused. "ok and...", You never call me by my name unless it's serious or something's wrong, She picks at her cereal.  "There is Michael.... us", What do you mean?, "I don't know thing's just don't feel right anymore Michael... thing's have changed ", babygirl what are you saying?,  "I don't know you Michael ", I sigh. "you're drinking, being overly aggressive, leaving every time thing's go wrong", And what about you?,  She looks up at me. "What about me? ", Keeping secrets...being distant... you don't even like making love anymore, She groans in agitation.  "What is up with that excuse in men? we don't make love anymore?, Michael when I try you're tired or busy or I'm tired or busy, Michael I'm talking about you I don't know this Michael nor do I like him ", So now you don't like me? babygirl I've been under stress so-, "So drinking relieves that?!  Michael you know why I hate drinking or alcohol you know I hate  that! look what happened to my father! He drunk his problems away plus his life! I don't want that with you Michael.... I don't.... you're a monster when you drink... you scare me", She said her voice getting softer and smaller towards the end of her sentence. I look down. I'm sorry, "Sorry can't fix it Michael ", What can I do?, "I don't know ", I hate fighting with you..... I know we have something worth fighting for but I hate fighting, She puts her bowl into the sink. I Love You, I said as she turned walking out. When she doesn't respond I feel my blood boil. I don't even know who I am.... now in pushing her away. It's bad enough I basically man handled yesterday and disrespected Yuli when I'm also hurting my kid's. I'm growing into my father. I just know it. But I don't know how to fix thing's. I walk out of the kitchen making my way upstairs to my home office. I walk in and closed the door slightly. Since I have a half a month off of work I'll just do some billing and ratios. I flip through different paper's trying to file the right one's that correspond with each other. Then the test cross my mind. two positive one negative. The one Marilyn  took before I came back was positive and the three she took yesterday, two negatives one positive.  Now that it crossed my mind I have mixed feelings because are we ready for another baby?  we have one teenager and two preteens. That's work enough. And now a baby might be in the equation? The two thing's burning my mind the most has to be the fact that if she is pregnant, there will be complications and it wouldn't be my son or daughter. It would but.... it isn't.  It would be a reminder of him and how he marked his territory. I lean back in my chair and sigh. I just want things to be back to normal again. Maybe we need to get away? My door cracks open. I look at it seeing Marilyn slipping in with a plate of food. "I'm mad at you but didn't want you to starve ", She said placing the plate on my desk walking out. Marilyn?, She turns around. I love you I really do I'm sorry, "sorry can't fix everything Michael, yes I still love you ", She walks out. I look at the plate and played with the food before taking tiny bites. I can't take this.  I quickly make my way to the room seeing Marilyn cleaning.  I walk to her taking the vacuum away turning it off. Marilyn don't ignore me, "Michael I don't have time for this, how many times have You accused me of crap this year? How many times have you apologized only to do it again? Then you insult my bestfriend?  She has been nothing but good to you and I! you still haven't apologized! Michael I'm sick of your attitude it's everywhere! baby...Michael you need help ", I look at her she's serious.  Ok whatever it takes, "Do it for you and the kid's not me ", I nod. I'll seek help and you'll go to the doctor's to see-,;"don't remind me ", I walk to her and slowly pulled her into my chest.  Listen to my heart, I wrap my arm's around her while doing the same with hers around me. "I'm listening ", Good it's the heart of a changed man, "I hope so", I kiss her head.  I do to... I do to....

To Be Continued.....