A Million Ways To Love You™(Never Let Go)♥ Book 3✔️

♥Chapter 28♥

*Brandon's Point Of View *

I'm so tired of this family. I'm so tired of the isolation. I'm tired of having to give up my life I should live just to abide to the life of an adult. I'm still a child with needs. I'm tired of the bullying at school. I'm tired of having no one to talk to. I'm tired of wish I was a better son for my dad. I'm tired of being confused. I don't want to fit in the mold of existing people. I want to live. But I also what someone to conform to my needs. Hell I need a damn bandaid once in awhile. And my family makes it worse. Everything is about Jas and Dylan. Oh but Brandon is older so he doesn't need us. I'm tired of that bull.  I need love. I know I am loved. I just don't feel it. And now with this upcoming baby that means I'm going to be pushed to the side even further. So I had to walk away from the table. I ran up to my room and slammed the door as hard as I could.  I wanted them to not only know that I'm mad I wanted them to hear it as well. So there I sat for almost an hour and nothing. Not one person came to ask if I was OK. I heard Jas and Dylan take a bath and rush back to their room's but still nothing. I sigh. I hate this I get isolated at school and home. From being called a bisexualfaggot to a lame mama's boy. I hate my life sometimes. I hate myself most of the time. All this is making me emotionally wrecked. I can't stop the tears from coming at this point.  Tears hurt but somehow make you feel better but then comes the headache. I sit and cry until I hear footsteps. I look at the door until it opens. "Brandon bud what's wrong? ", It was dad. I don't answer just looked away. He sighs and walks in and sits on my laptop desk. He doesn't say anything just looks at me in silence. I don't want another sister or brother, He looks unpleased by my response. "And why is that? ", Does there have to be a reason?, "Does every action have a reaction? ", I hate when he does that. Dad I really don't have time for your slick come backs just get out, "Brandon, Why were you crying? ', I don't answer. "Please just tell me?", Because of isolation, He looks at me confused so I continue. I feel isolated like a fish out of water... I'm tired of everything dad I'm tired of having to pay for being bisexual! God hates me doesn't he?! I'm sorry for causing you and ma to argue a lot I'm sorry for not being a good enough role model for Jas and Dylan I'm-, "Brandon... stop apologizing... I'm the one who should apologize... I know you feel ignored, I know you feel unimportant But Brandon you are loved you are important. And I've told you before you are the best son a father can have and your sexual orientation doesn't matter... stop beating yourself up please stop.... And your mother and I don't argue because of you or your siblings it's mainly something dumb and off the wall", Like her being pregnant?, He looks at me confused. Dad your room isn't too far from mine I know half the time what y'all talk about, "Well I'm not going to lie yes but like I said it's stupid and something I shouldn't even fuss about but anyways Brandon kiddo you havr to talk to us buddy you really do stop holding it in", He rubs my back. "You're a Jackson and Jackson's don't apologize for being themselves ", I guess, He smiles and pulls me in for a hug. I hug him tightly. It's what I needed.

*Marilyn's Point Of View *

Michael walks back in the room. I look away from my book. How is he?,  He sighs. "Better, He just needed someone to listen ", Oh I hate that I'm partly the cause of his anger, He climbs in the bed. "No you're not it's just kind of emphasized his anger he just needs more affection that's all ", I still feel bad, "Babygirl stop feeling bad... I swear of you and Brandon aren't twins", I know he still struggles with a lot I-, "Babygirl please calm down you'll give yourself a panic attack, come here ",He opened his arm's. I slowly scoot in his arm's resting my head on his chest. He wraps his arm's around my torso. "Just go to sleep please and we'll worry tomorrow ",I softly sigh and listened to his. heart. The steady beat instantly soothed my nerves. Moments like this remind me all too well of why I married Michael. Why I knew I wanted to be his forever and enormity...

To Be Continued...

A/N:

Vote and comment and I hope it wasn't too mushy gushy at the end. And this story almost has one k reads! Book 1 has 1.3k reads I'm super happy about that thank-you! especially You Yuli love you girl!