Our Little Secret | [j.b]

6

Rosaline F.

When I finally arrived at my house, I had to sit and let it sink in for a few seconds. I kissed him. The way his lips moved in sync with mine, made my heart skip a beat. That's not suppose to happen. I'm suppose to be in love with Chris and want a life with him and be with him. But instead I'm thinking about my boss in ways I shouldn't be. This is wrong, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel something at that moment. I should go inside before I start to over think it too much. As I opened the door to my pent house, I decided to go up stairs and just take a long shower to clear my head. Chris was at work and he wasn't here to bother me. It would be awkward if he found out I stayed at my boss's house. As the water ran down my back, the kiss started to float around in my head. I ran my fingers across my lips as if his were on mine again and sighed. Just the thought of the kiss, made my thoughts drift to other thoughts. Like if his lips were all over me; kissing every inch of my body. I need to stop.

After an hour spent in the shower, I wrapped my self in a robe and decided to play a movie. An action movie would be good right about now, like Batman V Superman. I've seen this movie 5 times and every time I love it even more. I just wish they'd made another batman movie, like upgraded. I'm more of a batman fan. The cool gadgets, suits, batcave, batmobile, batman himself. Bruce Wayne was like billionaire or something? That was my man. Loved him since I was a little kid. "Oh shit there's wonder-woman!" I said getting hyped even though I knew exactly what was going to happen next. I heard a knock on my door and got off my bed to answer it. "Rose, you can't just leave like that." The one and only Justin Bieber stood in my hallway. "What do you want?" I could feel my ears heat up, probably turning red also remembering the kiss. I hated that he knew exactly how to get in my house. I told him where the secret key was a long time ago in case of emergencies, it's a long story. "Let me get dressed," As he spoke, I put on a tank top and shorts.

"You worried me." He said and came into my room. "Watching a movie by yourself?" he asked, picking up the cover of the movie. "So what? Chris isn't here so I got the house to myself. Mind if I ask why you're here?" he poked the inside of his cheek, his eyes traveling down my body. He was staring at my bare legs and it made my heart beat speed up. "I'm ok, you can leave now." he shook his head. "Can we talk about earlier or was that just a dream?" he half heartedly joked, but I knew he was serious. "We can talk about it after the movie, yeah?" I rose an eyebrow. I turned around and ate a strawberry out of the bowl I prepared. "Sure, I love this movie." he stated. He took of his shoes and joined me on the bed. For a while we watched a few movies after that and we ate some popcorn to go with it. It was the weekends, so no work today, at least for me. I just wonder where Chris is, he should be back from work by now.

"Justin, I have a feeling Chris will be mad if he finds you here." I looked at him, pausing the movie. No correct that. He will be furious when he finds him. Wouldn't it be suspicious to find your girlfriend watching movies with her boss? "It's fine, I should go anyways. I hope everything works out with lover boy." he got off the bed. I could see the sadness in his eyes which said that he didn't want to leave. I didn't want him to leave either but he had to. "Don't be mad." He turned around with the craziest look on his face. "Why would I be mad? He's your boyfriend, I shouldn't be here when he gets here." I inwardly cringed at the word boyfriend. Just it coming from his mouth sounded weird. I didn't know why.  "Fine, I'll see you Monday or—" before I could finish my sentence he closed the door, leaving my room. He seemed bothered by this, but I didn't pry.

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"Rose, it would be nice if you would wake up. Please?" I heard a voice calling my name. Someone wanted me to wake up, I guess I fell asleep. It was noon now, so I slept for a while. I just stared at my boyfriend that once laid a hand on me and claimed he loved me. I wasn't sure I could forgive him for what he did. "Don't be like that. I came home and except hugs and kisses, don't be so bitter." he rolled his eyes, moving away from the bed. "Oh, so after what you did to me, I should kiss your ass and forget what happened. You're ridiculous!" I was done with hiding. Right after he slapped me and I fled to Justin's for comfort, I realized something. I need to stand up for myself. I shouldn't have to be nice and forget what happened like he never did it. "I what?" Chris backed away, looking down at his hands. "You seriously don't remember? You slapped me after I tried to help your drunk ass, but no. You didn't want my help and decided to hurt me!" My voice was cracking now. I hated the way I sounded and felt right now. I was furious with him, and exhausted. I just wanted to get back in bed and sleep the day away, but I couldn't leave this alone. "I slapped you? I would never hurt you Rose, you know that. I love you baby, I was just too drunk." That's when I lost it. My ears couldn't believe what just passed through them.

"Too drunk?! You fucking hit me Chris! I don't care how drunk you were, you had no right to hit me. I-I can't do this." Shook and fear filled his eyes as he tried to explain himself. There's no way he could if he couldn't remember. "Please don't leave! I'll do anything. I didn't mean it, I love you Rose." He pleaded and confessed his love over and over but his little apologies weren't enough. I yanked my wrist away from him, as I started to pack my bags. "No please don't leave me!" I stopped what I was doing and realized that I shouldn't be packing. This is my pent house, if anything he should leave if he can't clean up his act. "How about you leave then?" He shook his head vigorously and stood in front of me. "I'm not leaving and you're not leaving. I promise you, Rose, this will not happen again. Please forgive me." I looked anywhere else but his eyes. "Fine, but don't touch me or talk to me and you're not forgiven that easily." He nodded and tried to kiss me but quickly retreated as he remembered what I just said. "I'll make it up to you Rose, I promise."

"Don't make a promise you can't keep." I said to myself.

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