Our Little Secret | [j.b]

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Rosaline F.

I hate him...

He seems to ruin everything good in my life. He's broken my heart too many times to count, and I still don't understand why I let him back in every time. I'm exhausted. I want him out of my life. This isn't the first time he's broken my heart, I'm honestly tired of this same old love. I need someone that will be there for me no matter what, someone who I can trust at all times. Someone who loves me for me and won't betray me. And I don't know who that someone is.

*Flashback 3 years ago*

"Rose, you promise you'll be at my wedding tomorrow?" I smiled just at the thought of Javian getting married. He's 3 years older than me, I'm 20 years old. I don't know how he can be so in love with this woman but I'm a proud sister.

"I promise J." I could hear him chuckling. "Thank you, that means everything to me. Oh and mom and dad are sitting in the front, that's where you'll be seated." He informed me.

"Will do," there was a knock on the door. That must be Chris. "I gotta go, Love you J."

"Love you too sista." I hung up and jogged over to my door to open it. There stood the love of my life, the one that's kept me the longest.

"Sorry I came so late," Chris said walking into my room. We are suppose to go on a double date with my best friend Kinsey. "That's fine." There was an awkward silence, which isn't normal for us.

"Ready to go?" I asked, getting excited to see Kinsey's new boyfriend. He scratched the back of his neck. "Can we sit down and talk for a minute?" He asked looking nervous. "Sure."

I sat down and waited for him to continue. "Look I know our year anniversary is almost here but I had to be honest with you." I nodded. "I-I can't do this anymore." Those words in an instant broke my heart. I swear if this boy is breaking up with me, I'm popping that head all the way to China. "What?"

"I think it's getting too serious, I mean dude a year?" He started asking himself. "You wanted to date me this long and as soon as it got too serious for you, you'd break my heart?" I asked furious. "Don't take this personally, I just...I love you Rose but I'm not sure about this." I covered my mouth, holding back tears. "I see how you feel-"

"Rose please under-"

"Shut the fuck up," He looked frazzled. I rarely curse at anyone. "I don't want to hear it, just leave." He didn't say another word and left.

*End of flashback*

The rest of that week was absolutely the worst week of my life. The next day I over slept and missed half of my brothers wedding; getting embarrassed running in there really late with eyes staring at me. My mom and dad told me it wasn't my fault for over sleeping and they felt bad for the breakup I had. On the other hand, my brother was furious, he went over the edge on how much this wedding meant to him. I apologized only a hundred times but that wasn't enough. I was mad with myself and went to a party with Kinsey to try to cheer me up. I didn't tell anyone where I went which was a bad move.

That night my best friend decided to ditch me with her boyfriend and leave me without a ride home. In my situation, my brother was still mad at me, so he never answered. My parents were both at work late and thought I was a home safe so they wouldn't be answering their phones. I didn't know my way home, so I tried to walk to the nearest gas station.

Walking alone in the street, a homeless man grabbed onto my arm, yanking me to the ground. He wanted to steal money from me; which I didn't have and put his weight on me. I was helpless. He took all of what I had, including my phone and almost left me alone. But when I tried to yell for help, he spun around with a knife and stabbed me in the side. Screaming as loud as I did, it soon struck him that he'd made a mistake. He ran for his life, leaving me bleeding out. Soon enough my brother found me and made it to the hospital and I was stitched up. Nothing too fatal so I was fine.

I've been angry at my brother ever since.

**

"Rose!" Justin was back from the store, while I took a long shower. I stepped out of the shower, wiping my face of the tears that ran down my cheeks. "Rose?" Justin was now standing outside the bathroom. "Yes?" I said trying not to sound like I was crying. "You ok in there? You've been in there since I left an hour ago." He was right. I've been crying. I've been doing a whole lot of that lately.

"U-Um I'm fine." I slightly stuttered. "Ok, I got what you asked for you and I brought chipotle for breakfast. Yell if you need me." He was way too nice. "Thank you Justin." I leaned against the door. I could almost feel him on the other side. "Your welcome." He said, his voice low.

After getting dressed, I went down stairs and joined him in breakfast. I could see him smiling and I soon smiled. "What's wrong Justin?" I turned to him. "Nothing," he chuckled. He leaned towards my ear, his nose brushing against my cheek. "You smell really good." When he backed away, his lips touched my cheek. That made me itch for a kiss but I didn't let it show. "Thank you.." I didn't know how to act around him when he was like this.

"So mind if I ask what happened with Chris?" I knew this was going to come up. "Well I already told you about him cheating on me but I told him he had to leave. That he would need to be gone by the time I get back which is this morning." He nodded his head. He had that look on his face that said 'thats my girl'

"Do you regret breaking up with him?" He looked more serious now. I wouldn't expect him to ask something like this. "Well no and yes. I loved him and we spent many years together," I sat there and paused for a second.

"This isn't the first time he's broken my heart, he's done that in many ways. But on the other hand, I hate him for what he did and wish he was out of my life for good. I don't have time for people like him." I turned to see what Justin's reaction was, which was unreadable. "I'm glad you know what you want." He finished his plate.

"Did I make the right choice?" I tested.

"Of course, absolutely. I think you need a fresh start Rose. He wasn't good for you and you deserve better. I hope you can find someone good enough for you one day; that will cherish you, compliment you for your beauty everyday and treat you like the queen you are." His eyes glowed so bright in the sun light, a beautiful hazel brown. My heart was in flutters, as well my stomach erupting in butterflies. "Justin I don't know what to say." He waved his hand.

"No need. I just want the best for you and I'm willing to make that happen." And with that we left for work.

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"I only have one life and I only wanna live it with you..." -JB💕