Our Little Secret | [j.b]

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Rosaline Fletcher

"Where do you live?" my voice came out shaky as the words slipped out of my mouth. "Why did you call me Rose?" I thought he'd be happy to know I called him for once but all I heard was discomfort. "I can't go back home right now... can I stay the night? If that's alright with you?" I bit my lip awaiting his response. I wanted to hurry up and get to my house before Justin got there.

"Rose... I don't know about this." Chris breathed into the phone, clearly not up for the idea. "Didn't you want me to see you?" He began to speak but I cut him off. "Well here I am. Is it a yes or a no?" he sighed and spoke. "Yeah, you can stay the night... you know you're always welcome." I nodded even though I knew he couldn't see me. "The door will be unlocked." he continued, then said a quick bye before hanging up.

I knew I was messing up going to Chris's house but can you blame me? I know he did me wrong and I could never forgive him, which I'm not. But I can't stay home either. There are too many memories of us, and I just need time to clear my head. Justin is all I think about 24/7, since when have I had time for myself? I love him but he cheated and that can't be forgiven.

Once I made it to my house, I quickly found the keys to unlock my door. The weird thing is, the door wasn't locked. I swear I locked it this morning. I thought to myself. When I opened the door, there sat Justin, with his head in his hands. He shot his head up, quickly lifting from the couch to bring me into his arms. When I didn't hold onto his embrace, he knew something wasn't right. He had too, how could he not?

"Babe, I can explain-"

"Explain?! Explain what, that you cheated on me and now you're sorry? You're only sorry you got caught." He looked down, not expecting me to blow up on him. I was furious with him.

"Rose, I would never hurt you- I could never. Selena set this up, it was her plan to break us apart." He lied. He said she was out of his life, just like I said Chris was and here we are. What a lair he is.

"Don't bullshit me, Justin! I know you were seeing her behind my back! You look so dumb right now, you know that?" I got in his face, feeling tears well up in my eyes. "Dammit, Rose, will you let me fucking explain?! I would  never hurt you! I will never hurt you, god, baby girl I love you so much and you actually think I'd do that to you. Please don't believe that photo, its not true. Even if I still wanted to be with Selena, I wouldn't string you along like that... I'm not that kind of person." his voice cracked, making all the anger I felt towards him fade away.

Yes, I was still heartbroken, but I couldn't bare to see or hear him like this. It only caused more cracks in my heart to form.

"Why does this always happen to me?" Justin yelled at himself, causing echoes to go through the living room. "What do you mean?" I asked, not knowing what else to say. "Every time something good in my life happens, something always fucks it up. You know I'm getting tired of taking anxiety medicine and always constantly worrying about fucking up or losing you; cause I'm so messed up." I held his face in my hands.

"Justin you're not messed up. I don't even know who this person is you're describing. That's not my Justin." He shoved my hands away. "That's because you don't know, that Justin. You only know supporting and loving Justin. I don't want you to see that side of me." I looked down at the floor, then back at Justin.

"Justin I've already seen that side. I don't mean to bring this up, but I've seen it with you and your mother. When you get mad, you sometimes display that side, but Justin honestly, I love you for you. All sides of you." He smiled and leaned his head onto mine. "I'm sorry, I should have told you about the whole 'ex trying to ruin our relationship' deal. I didn't want to tell you because I knew you'd freak out." I nodded, breaking my gaze from his.