Lea POV
"Hey sexy man." I said kissing the back of Riker's shoulder. So tonight is kind of a late leaving party for Sue, she's already moved but with everything going on we've found it hard all be together at once.
Riker isn't one to turn down or walk out of a party, we did think he went to go and change because Ross spilt some of his drink down him, checked all up stairs couldn't find him, it wasn't until Greg was staring out of the window and asked who that weirdo was and then it hit me, it was Riker.
"Since when do you leave parties ?" I laughed.
"Since everyone started asking me a bunch of questions, are you scared ? It'll be fine ! Do you know what you're doing ? Children suck you don't know what you're getting yourself into ! Of course I'm fucking scared and it won't be fucking fine and no I have no fucking clue what I'm fucking doing !" Riker said punching the tree a couple of times.
There's the lava.
Riker and I are the same obviously there are some differences but we're the same personality wise, if we have a problem or are stressed about something we won't talk to people we bottle it up because we believe our problems are our problems others shouldn't have to deal with it and it's like a volcano we keep bottling things up until someone has to say the wrong thing and that's when the lava comes up and everything comes out and you end up having a mental break down.
"Riker look at me, look at me." I said putting my hands either side of his neck, Riker looked at me and slowly his breath started to return to normal.
"I can't do it Lea, I'm scared, it's freaking me out, neither of us are sleeping, it's driving us mad, we're both freaking out and I-I can't breathe." Riker said as his breathing instantly went into over drive.
Oh my god, his having a panic attack.
"Riker look at me, don't look at anything else just keep your eyes on mine okay baby ?" I asked making him nod as he started gasping for air.
I slowly nodded and I didn't tell him to breathe because I've had panic attacks before, really bad and people always said to me just breathe, I'm fucking trying to breathe, you go into even more of a panic when that happens because you're struggling to catch your breath back, I have physically passed out from a panic attack it was that bad.
"Easy alright ? Keep looking at me, I know you're scared, I'm scared too and I've been through this with Greg, being a parents is hard I'm not going to lie it is so fucking stressful but it's all worth it, every sigh, every small argument we'll have, every thing will be worth it because when you get to see your baby girl for the first time, you'll know what I'm talking about, this isn't going to be easy but we'll get through it together. We didn't always have everything we wanted but we always had each other and we'll always have each other, Riker, Pops would be so proud of you, he'd be proud of the man you've become, he'd be proud of what you've done already, I'm proud of you, we're all proud of you, even if this makes me sound crazy I don't care, I used to listen to your old voicemails when I was down just to hear you laugh or just to hear your voice, my phone has both of your albums on just so I could hear you sing because your voice does stuff to my body, fuck your eyes do stuff to my body, you're my best friend, you're my idol, you're the guy I look up too, you're my boyfriend and maybe one day even husband and most importantly you're the man I have a beautiful son with and I don't want anything to change that and I love you so much." I said taking a deep breath.
Riker laughed and looked at me with a raised eyebrow "baby girl ?"
"I know we agreed not to but you were acting like this a lot so I thought maybe you were getting nervous because you didn't know what to do about it or something." I said.
Riker shook his head and hugged me tight "I get to have a queen and a princess ?" I laughed and nodded.
"So our family goes Captain, Queen, Pirate and Princess ?" Riker asked.
"The goldfish and the dog Dad's bough Greg." I said smiling even though Riker could tell it was a fake smile.
"Can that dress easily be pulled off or is it more complicated than that ?" Riker asked as we headed inside, I laughed shaking my head as he put his arm over my shoulders and I wrapped my arm around his waist "it wouldn't be any fun if I told you."
"Either you tell me or I rip it and you know I will." Riker said, I looked at him and shook my head "you're not finding out." I whispered kissing him.
"Can you sign this ? Ryland said if I get 100 people to sign it I'll get $50." Greg said holding up his cast. So two days ago Greg thought it would be clever to sit in a box and push himself down the stairs, he ended up with a broken arm.
Riker and laughed and took the pen and wrote his name, his signature and then Captain Jack Sparrow "shh."
"Thanks !" Greg said hugging Riker before running off on his adventure.
"It's such a turn on seeing you with kids." I said, Riker laughed grabbing my waist and leaned him self against the wall lightly kissing me, biting my bottom lip as he slid his tongue in my mouth making me moan as I pulled him closer.
"Seriously you guys haven't even been inside and you're already tongue fucking." Sarah said handing me a beer. Ross went and found these non-alcoholic beers, they taste like beers, smell like beers, look like beers but they don't have the alcohol.
"My girlfriend I'll do what I want with her." Riker said making me laugh as Hands To My Self started playing "can't keep my hands to myself, I mean I could but why would I want to ?" I sang making them both laugh.
"That one, that one was clever." Sarah said.
"I'm gonna go see what Rydel is up too." I said pecking Riker's lips, Sarah rolled her eyes and smacked my arm as I walked past her, obviously I hit her back but ran off laughing like a little kid.
"Did you find Riker ?" Rydel asked.
"Yeah he just needed to let some steam o-"
"Mom and Dad just told me you were pregnant....holy shit ! When they said that I thought they meant like you know two maybe three weeks." Sue said hugging me, I laughed and shook my head "I'm about 8 maybe 8 and a half weeks now."
"Wow that's gone by so fast." Rydel laughed.
"Yep, has Greg come up to you with his cast yet ? Ryland said 100 signatures and he'll give him $50." I said making Rydel shake her head.
Sorry I haven't updated for a while, I hope you enjoy !
