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Emily's POV

Alison has just finished telling me everything. Now I know the entire story. This is so much to process right now that I don't even know what to say. Where do I even begin? I know this is a very vulnerable moment right now for Alison and I can tell she's dying for me to say something. That's just the thing, what should I say? I have so many thoughts and emotions running through me right now. I mean we are obviously close enough and in love enough that she asked me to marry her. She was ready to take that step and I can't even remember for myself that we were even a couple. And Paige. How could she do such a thing? I don't remember my time with her but from what I've read; I can't imagine her ever doing such a thing. I mean my God, Alison killed the guy she dated for so many years. She saved my life. To add on to that, I killed Paige in order to save Alison. I actually killed someone. I took someone's life. That's a lot to swallow even if the person was bad and trying to hurt you.

I took a deep breath and said, "Alison, I don't even know where to begin or what to say. I'm just feeling and thinking so many different things right now. I'm just going to start talking and say whatever comes out first. God it's going to be rambling nonsense.... I'm sorry that I can't remember us. I'm sorry that I don't remember all the little moments that we've shared. I'm sorry I don't remember how deeply I feel about you. I'm sorry I don't remember you loving me... even proposing to me. God I want to so badly though! But in this moment right now, my heart feels something for you. I feel safe with you and I can feel your love for me. I've felt it since I woke up. The time we've shared since I woke up has felt so familiar to me. It's been so easy and effortless. Alison, I'm so sorry that Noel and Paige did this to us. I'm sorry you had to kill him in order to save me. That can't be an easy thing to live with. I mean my God I killed someone too. Even though I can't remember my relationship with Paige, that couldn't have been easy in the moment. But it sounds like she was going to kill you so I have to say that I don't regret shooting her. Thank you for saving my life. Thank you for never leaving my side while I was in a coma. Thank you for being so patient with me and making me your number one priority. I promise you, I'm trying with everything in me to remember us. I want my life back".

Cupping my face in her hands, Alison replied tearfully, "Emily, look at me. You have nothing to be sorry about. It's not your fault. None of it is your fault. I know you are trying to regain your memory. I truly believe you will. We've been apart before and we've found our way back to one another. Emily we can do it again. What we have is that powerful. I don't care how long it takes or if it ever happens because that's how much I love you. You are everything to me. You are my home. You are worth the wait".

In that moment, all I wanted to do was kiss Alison. It just didn't seem like the right moment though. We were both too emotional and exhausted. So instead I suggested we head home and get some rest. As we walked side by side out of the park, I reached over, held her hand, and interlocked my fingers in between hers. Alison looked at me with a smile and a bit of surprise on her face but said nothing. We walked home silently and when we arrived back at my apartment, we got in our pajamas and into bed together. "Goodnight Alison" I said. "Night Emily" she replied. A few moments later I turned over in bed to face her and said, "Alison, for tonight, can you just hold me till I fall asleep? I liked it when you did that before". Alison smiled and outstretched her arms, welcoming me as I snuggled up underneath her neck. My heart was pounding and I could hear hers too. She began softly stroking my hair, causing me to get very sleepy. Before I fell asleep, she kissed the top of my head and said, "Sweet dreams baby. I love you so much".

Bright sunlight through the shutters woke me the next day. I was in Alison's arms, very much like how I was when I fell asleep. I felt so rested and so.... happy. Alison was still sound asleep. I could hear her heart beating evenly and her breathing was slow and steady. Being like this with her felt right and like I could stay like this for the rest of the day. In that moment, I couldn't help myself. I ever so quietly and slowly lifted my head off of her chest and gently kissed her on the cheek. Boy she really was sound asleep cause she didn't even move when I kissed her. Looking over at the clock, I saw that it was 1 in the afternoon so I decided to take a shower to wake up some more. When I had finished and got dressed, I came out of the bathroom and saw that she was still fast asleep. I walked over to her and gently kissed her on the forehead to wake her up. When I slowly pulled away, I saw she still had her eyes closed but had a huge smile on her face. "Alison, wake up. It's almost 2 in the afternoon. We slept half the day away," I softly whispered to her. Quickly opening her eyes as if she'd just remembered something, she flew the covers off of her and ran towards the bathroom. "Oh crap, I'm gonna be late," she said while brushing her teeth. "Late? Late for what," I asked. "I have a follow up appointment with my doctor and a physical therapy appointment after that" she responded now washing her face. "Oh, do you need me to come with you? Can I make you something before you go," I asked trying to ease her. "You actually have a follow up appointment with your doctor as well. I see you're already dressed. Hanna, Spencer, and Aria are going to take you in uhhh.... about 15 minutes. In case you make it home before me, I have a little something for you to look through. Oh also, when I come home, we can make dinner if you'd like," she said as she started getting dressed. "Well see know you have me all curious as to what this little something is," I said flirtatiously as I sprawled out on the bed. With a pouty face I said, "Can I just see it now? I'm too curious". Alison stopped putting on her shoes and walked over to me with a fake serious look on her face. Getting really close to my face she whispered, "Now Emily Fields, you know what they say about curiosity. Spencer has it for me and will give it to you after your appointment". Kissing me on the forehead she said, "Promise me you'll only look at it after your appointment and you're back here alone". My instinct was to say you missed because all I wanted her to do right then and there was to kiss me. Like for real kiss me. However I decided to agree and promise to wait till I was back here to look at it.

The time at my appointment felt like eternity. All I could think about was what Alison had to give me. Finally, the girls dropped me off and I ran upstairs so I could open the gift bag Spencer gave me. Jumping on the bed, I quickly teared out the tissue paper and pulled out the gift bag's contents, It was a photo album. On the cover was a candid picture of Alison and me. Alison was kissing me on the cheek and I had my eyes closed while smiling and laughing. This was an absolutely adorable picture of us. Just looking at this picture stirred something in me. My heart began to race and I felt excited to see what this album would reveal about our relationship. As I flipped through the pages, I saw time and time again just how happy we seemed and how much we were in love. There were candid pictures, selfies, silly pictures, posed pictures, and even a few typed up journal entries from Alison talking about what was happening in the picture, how it made her feel, and more.

When I reached the last page Alison made in the photo album, I gasped. There was one picture in the center with a caption, "Will she be my wife?" It was a simple picture of a stunning engagement ring in a box. It was my ring. The ring that was meant for me the night she proposed. And with that, as if by some lightening strike, some magical fairy lifting a curse, or God showing mercy upon me, my head started pounding. I felt like my head was going to pop off my neck and I started getting lightheaded. I decided to lie flat on the bed and close my eyes. Images and emotions started flooding my mind and I started breathing heavily. It was coming back. Everything from the journals, everything the girls told me about, everything Alison told me was all coming back to me and then some. I remembered my first day in high school, all of my swim meets, the ups and downs with Alison, the late nights laughing with the girls, my tumultuous relationship with Paige, losing my virginity, reuniting, kissing, and falling in love with Alison, the pain of losing my parents, the pure joy I felt when Alison proposed, and of the extreme physical pain from the attack by Noel and Paige. All the pain and all the sorrow, all the joy and all the laughter overwhelmed my heart and I started to cry. This out of body experience was my life literally flashing before my eyes. Through all the tears, I knew that I was whole again. I finally got my life back.

I half heard Alison come through the door and start talking about what she got for dinner. I was just so focused on allowing all my memories to come back to me and allowing myself to feel all the emotions in the moment. But then something clicked in me. I remember us. She's going to be so happy. I had to tell her right now. But how should I tell her? I wanted this moment to be special. So I decided to head to the kitchen where I saw her facing away from me, cutting something on the counter top. I walked up behind her and slid my arms around her waist, hugging her from behind. "Oh! Well hello Emily" she said sounding a little surprised. "Want to help make dinner?" she continued. Gently pulling all her hair to one shoulder, I started kissing her bare neck and barely running my fingertips up and down her shoulders. I could tell she was enjoying it because she stopped cutting, extended her neck for more access, started breathing heavier, and even let out a slight moan. She was putty in my arms. I love that I have that effect on her. Slowly moving from her neck and shoulders, I lightly tugged on her ear with my teeth  and whispered, "I have a better idea. Afterall Ali, this is your weakness". With her eyes closed, nodding her head in agreement, and letting out another little moan she replied in a husky voice, "Mhmm..You know it is". In that moment, I could physically feel her mind and body realize what was happening. She spun around to face me within an instant. Her big, blue eyes were full of hope and anticipation when she said, "Wait. You called me Ali. That's the first time you've done that since waking up. You always called me Ali unless you were mad or being serious. Then you'd call me Alison. And.... you... you knew that I love when you do that to me". Cupping my face in her hands she said, "Baby... Does that mean you regained your memory? Oh please say yes". Before I could finish smiling and nodding yes, she pulled me close to her and kissed me hard. I kissed her back with the same intensity. I could feel tears streaming down her face as our kisses turned more passionate and purposeful. Pulling away for some air, I wiped her tears and said, "Ali, baby. Don't cry. I'm home now. We found our way back to each other". Catching her breath and wiping away more of her tears she replied, "They're happy tears. I promise. I... I just can't believe it! What made you remember everything?". Pushing her up against the counter, I started kissing her neck again. In between kisses, I said "Well, it was the photo album actually. The final page with the engagement ring picture did me in". Then moving back to kissing her lips I said, "The memories came flooding back after that". Ali started breathing heavy again and began grabbing at me, pulling me closer while her tongue made it's way into my mouth, kissing me more deeply.