Mia
"I know you're not here yet little guy, but mommy needs someone to talk to right now." I said while rubbing my tiny baby bump. It's 3 am and I still can't seem to go to sleep. Not only that, but it's a school night. There's too much on my mind right now. "I don't know if you can hear me, but I read somewhere that it's good to talk to you. But yeah, mommy isn't very happy right now." "You see mommy wants to go to this big place called New York when she graduates. Over there, mommy can go pursue her dreams to be a makeup artist, but if mommy goes, then that means she has to leave you here." My eyes were getting watery as I spoke to my baby.
"And you know mommy loves you. Mommy loves you so much, that she wishes she could just give you everything so you can be happy. Mommy loves you so much, that she'd even risk her life for you. Mommy could take you to New York, but that would mean we would have to leave daddy here, and mommy doesn't want that. Mommy wants to be with you and daddy forever and ever. Mommy would do anything for you two, but if mommy stayed here, she would be sad. " I sniffled a little.
"Mommy can't just leave her babies, now can she?" I sobbed. "Mommy would miss you, and she would have to miss 2 special years of your life. Mommy wants to always be with you." I wiped away my tears and kissed my baby. "Whatever I choose to do, please know that mommy will always love you no matter what." I said.
About 5 minutes later, I finally knocked out, but then like 30 minutes later, I woke up only to throw up for a few minutes. At about 7 am, I forced myself to get through the day despite my horrible night. The thing that I hate about pregnancy, is how the symptoms just continue to be more frequent. Can I stop being so bloated! Well, I quickly threw on an over sized grey sweater ( I've been wearing them more often to hide my baby bump. My mom says I'm over exaggerating, but I think not!), some nice blue jeans that make my butt look good, and some white shoes.
I washed my face and everything, then I put my hair in a messy bun since I was feeling kinda lazy today. Then, I sat down to do my makeup. I put on some BB cream, concealer to highlight certain areas, some highlighter, mascara, and some nude eyeshadow. Then I did my eyebrows and put on some clear lip gloss. Yeah I know that's sorta a lot of makeup, but what can I say, I love putting it on. It's not that I think I look ugly of anything, it's just that I find it fun to do makeup.
I couldn't find my contacts, so I threw on my regular seeing glasses and sprayed on some coconut scented body spray.
I ate a chorizo burrito and threw a bunch of snacks in my backpack for "pregnancy purposes" and headed out to the bus.
I honestly almost fell asleep on the bus until the bus lady shouted, "HIGH SCHOOL!". I got up from my 5 second nap and forced myself to walk into the prison adults call "school".
I walked to the lockers where I usually meet Kiera and found her flirting with Ivan. I stood there for about 5 minutes until I got a headache from waiting for her. "Um hello? Earth to Kiera!" I exclaimed feeling more than irritated. She then snapped out of it and turned her head towards me. "Oh hey Mia!" She said cheerfully. "Hey Mia!" Ivan waved. "Hey!" I said in my best fake smile. "You sound tired." Kiera said. I actually thought I sounded pretty energetic. "Oh it's nothing! Just a bit of morning sickness!" I lied. "Oh are you okay?" Kiera asked. Not really! "Yeah it usually goes away." I said.
"Oh ok." She said relieved. I didn't feel like telling her that I only got like 3 hours of sleep. "Oh yeah Mia! Do you wanna go to Marcus's party tonight? I got an invite today and it says I can bring more people." She asked. Unfortunately, I have my every 4 weeks doctor's appointment at 4, then I have to study for my English and history tests, and I'm also super tired. "I'm kinda busy today." I simply said. "Okayyy." Kiera said. Then the bell rang. "See ya later." Ivan said as he pecked Kiera on the lips and waved me goodbye.
The day went by okay I guess. My first couple of classes were kinda crappy and I even fell asleep in my math class during 2nd period. Luckily I have a friend that has the same math teacher, so I can just tell her to write down some notes for me. Lunch kinda brightened up my day as it always does because it's the only time during school that I get to see Darien since he's a freshman and I'm a senior. People often tell me crap for dating a freshmen, but I love him and he loves me and that's all that matters.
As soon as I saw him waiting by the cafeteria like he always does, my frown turned upside down. "Hey babe!" I smiled. "Hey!" He said and pecked my lips. I hugged him and said, "I missed you." "I did too." He said and hugged me a little tighter. He then pulled out a pack of Oreos from behind his back. I immediately snatched them from his hands and exclaimed "I love you!". "Fattie!" He laughed. I lightly punched his shoulder and said, "Hey remember most of this is for your child that is inside of me. Besides, I can't believe that you remember my Oreo cravings!" I laughed.
"How could I forget?" He smirked. You know it's true love when your boyfriend buys you food. I promised him I'd go to the park with him during lunch, so after he got his lunch we walked over there. I wanted to discuss a few important things with him so I guess today would be a good time.
We sat under a large tree since all the tables and benches were taken at the park. "So, there's been something I've been wanting to tell you for awhile," I said. "I'm listening." He said and leaned forward. I took a deep breathe and said, "Well after graduation I want to leave to New York to pursue my makeup career." I watched his expression go from happiness to a weary smile. "Doesn't that mean you'll have to leave us here?" He said referring to him and the baby. "May....be?" I said taking my eyes off his.
He sighed and said, "Mia you can't just leave! Isn't there somewhere closer?" He exclaimed. Now I regret telling him. "But it's always been my dream and I know that sounds kinda selfish, but there's so much opportunity for me over there!" I said. He seemed speechless for a few moments, until he said, "Just give me time to think about it." THINK ABOUT IT?! "What do you mean think about it! This is my decision not yours! You can't just control me like that!" I mean he just can't! "Well what the hell do you want me to say?!" He was beginning to raise his voice. "I don't know! Maybe something like 'good for you babe!'!" I was getting angry.
"So you're telling me that you want to just leave me here with our baby all by myself as a high school student?!" He shouted. His words hit me hard. Do I really want to do that to Darien? Do I really want to leave him here to care for OUR child BY HIMSELF until I come back? "Let's just go." He sighed and got up. "Yeah." And we got up and walked back to school.
The rest of the school day, I couldn't stop thinking about him. I couldn't concentrate on anything. After school I took off to my doctor's appointment. Over there they took my ultra sound and asked me if I wanted to hear the baby's heartbeat. "Yes." I said. Hearing it's heartbeat will definitely brighten up my day. Once he let me hear it, I genuinely smiled. "Well, you're baby seems to be doing just fine and everything seems pretty normal." My doctor said. It feels good to know that my pregnancy is going on just how it should.
I got up from the chair and went back home with my mom to go study. I started to think about Darien again. I tried to call him, but he won't answer. I tried to ignore him and focus on my homework. At about 6:30, I was listening to an old Nelly song while studying for my math test, when I heard my mom exclaim, "Honey! Darien is here!" I turned up the volume of my music and tried to ignore them since I was mad at him.
I heard a knock on my door. I made the volume even louder. Unfortunately I don't have a lock on my door, so Darien walked in anyways. He turned off my stereo. "What the hell do you want?! I'm trying to study!" I said. "I just wanted to talk about our conversation from earlier-" I cut him off by saying, "Darien just f*cking forget about it! I won't go!" I said, careless of my vocabulary. "Mia that's not what I was going to tell you!" He exclaimed. "Then what are you trying to tell me?!" I exclaimed. I was beginning to become very frustrated with him.
"I came here to tell you to go!" He said. At that moment I stopped what I was doing and stared at him. "But what about you?" I asked still surprised. "I'll figure something out, but i don't know. I just felt like a jerk for bringing you down like that. Mia, I love you and I want you to be happy. I want to be the one who makes you happy like you make me happy. I want you to pursue your dreams. I want to help you, and if that means staying here, then I'm down to do it." He urged. I felt so happy that I got out of my bed and ran towards him to give him a big hug.
I think Darien and I will stick together. You know that moment when you finally realize that the one you love is "the one" for you? Well I think this was our moment. I actually started to cry. "Don't cry or else your makeup will get all over me." I laughed at his statement. "Is it ok if I see the baby?" He asked. I don't think he's ever seen my baby bump, so I sat down on my bed and lifted up my sweater for him to see my stomach.
He bent down and smiled. He rested his head on my lap and began to speak to the baby. "Hey little guy, it's daddy speaking. I just wanted to let you know that you're growing faster than daddy expected. Daddy loves you and wishes he could finally see you. Daddy is glad to see that your beautiful mommy is taking good care of you." Mommy and daddy love you." He said and kissed my belly.
"Have you thought of any names yet?" He asked. Not really actually. "Well I was waiting for you to come and talk about it." I urged. "Hmmm, I don't know. Hit me." He smirked. "Well for a girl what about Vanessa?" "Nope" he replied. "Rihanna?" "Nope." "Fine then what about.......Adeline?" I asked. His eyes twinkled once he heard the name. "Yeah! And her nickname can be Addy!" He said. "Yeah!" I exclaimed. "As for a boy..." he said. "What about, Dominic?" "Yeah I like that name!" I grinned.
"Let the journey begin!" I thought.
Hey guys! I really enjoy updating on these two since my parents were teen parents themselves. Comment on whether or not I should continue updating on these two. I'd also love to hear u guys comment on what u think the baby's gender will be!
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-Samantha
