just a nobody. // G.D

part 15 // last chapter

*UNKNOWN TIME PERIOD*

*EVA'S POV*

i step out of the car onto the wet gravel road and push open my umbrella. i feel a breeze brush lightly against my chest, causing my lips to shiver. i zip up my black jacket a little more than it already was and continue walking.

it's so quiet, i can hear the smallest whispers being spread. in the background, i hear the wet tires rolling on the driveway, the clicks of heels, and the sounds of car doors being opened.

i don't know many people here besides my family.... but everyone knows me. i don't know how to greet the people. i'm not used to this environment. i don't like it.

once i reach the rows of black chairs i find the one with my name on it and i sit down. i'm in the front row along with many people i also don't know. i cross my legs and place my handbag on my lap and just wait.

as time passes, i look around noticing the large amounts of families filing in with tears rolling down their red cheeks from the cold weather. winter always was seemed like a sad season to me. my ears pick up the muffled sobs of people around me and i wonder why i can't form tears. i don't know why i'm not showing any emotion. part of me is still in shock. heck, all of me is still in shock, and i will be for a very long time.

i glance up at the sky to see dark clouds painting it. not one ounce of sun is seeping through. it is a very gloomy day. a day i never want to have to go through again.

a man, i think to be is a priest, dressed in all black with a white collar, walks up to the mini podium with a tiny microphone. he begins with a small opening prayer and then tells us to reach under our chairs to receive the schedule of today. the name in bold on the front punctures my heart and it hits me how much i miss him.

the priest begins his speech...

"today, we gather hear together to mourn of our loss. but he wouldn't want us to be sad, he would want us to celebrate the life he was given, and the time we spent with him. today is a day of rejoicing and finding the positives in life rather than the negatives. today, we will honor grayson bailey dolan. who will forever be missed but always in our hearts. yes, his life was ended quickly. too quickly. but there was never a time where he didn't have a contagious smile on his face, smiling through the pain and some of the hardest days of his life. he will never be forgotten."

i stand up and walk over to the table next to podium and pick up a white rose. i get on my knees next to the casket and i drape part of my body on it and just lose myself. my eyes stream out tears and i let out uncontrollable sobs. i just now realized how much he has affected me. he was my everything. he was somebody i loved with all of my heart, but now he's gone, and there's nothing i can do about it.

once i have released all my tears, i stand up and brush off my dirt-covered knee caps and walk over to my mom. she gives me a look that's says "everything will be ok"
nothing will ever be ok, but for now, i just have to live my life. that's what he would want.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

i'm so sorry for ending the book like this, but not all stories have a happy ending. thank you guys so much for reading and i'll update you about my plans on the other book;) ily all soooo much! have a gr8 day -madison❤

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